December 1 has remained in Romanian history as the Day of Romania, because on this day in Alba Iulia, in 1918, the unification of Transylvania with the united principalities of Moldavia and the Romanian Country has been accomplished .
So, let us live this day in a traditional way, with Romanian food, folk music, along with our loved ones and to enjoy that we live as a united nation.
Happy Birthday, my dear Romania!
Also ...
Happy Birthday, Pro TV!
Go Asesoft, although I am disappointed by the outcome of the match: 72 to 73 for Belgacom Liege (FIBA Europe Cup).
Tonight I went to a club where they also play Latin music. I’ve waited so long for a place like this one. I want to take dance lessons, perhaps starting next year.
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1 decembrie a ramas in istoria romanilor ca Ziua Romaniei, deoarece in aceasta zi la Alba Iulia, in anul 1918, s-a infaptuit unirea Transilvaniei cu Principatele unite ale Moldovei si Tarii Romanesti.
Asadar, sa traim aceasta zi in mod traditional, cu bucate romanesti, cu muzica populara, alaturi de cei dragi noua si sa ne bucuram ca traim intr-o tara unita.
La multi ani, Romania mea draga!
Deasemenea...
La multi ani, ProTV!
Hai Asesoft, desi sunt dezamagita de rezultatul meciului: 72 - 73 pentru cei de la Belgacom Liege (FIBA Europe Cup).
In seara asta am fost intr-un club unde se pune si muzica latino. Asteptam de mult timp sa apara un astfel de local si pe la noi. Vreau sa iau lectii de dans, poate de la anu'.
marți, 1 decembrie 2009
luni, 30 noiembrie 2009
3+1 gift ... Happy nameday to me!
It's St. Andrew today. Happy nameday to all of you. May all your wishes come true.
And for me ... well, one wish came true. I will wait and see if others will also come true.
3+1 gift means what? It means I’m dedicating 3 songs to myself and one to you.
1. Sade - Cherish the day
Lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/s/sade/cherish_the_day.html
2. Marius Mihalache - Bordeias (Little hovel). This romanian song always makes me think about home and the people I love.
3. Melina Leon - Que sera de ti (What will be of you). This song is part of the O Clone Soundtrack, the video also is from the brasilian novela.
Spanish lyrics:http://www.lyricsdownload.com/leon-melina-que-sera-de-ti-lyrics.html
4. Amr Diab - Tamally Maak (Always with you). This one is for you because I really like the melody and the lyrics.
Arab lyrics: http://www.lyricsdownload.com/amr-diab-tamally-maak-lyrics.html
English lyrics:http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/3530822107858557928/
And for me ... well, one wish came true. I will wait and see if others will also come true.
3+1 gift means what? It means I’m dedicating 3 songs to myself and one to you.
1. Sade - Cherish the day
Lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/s/sade/cherish_the_day.html
2. Marius Mihalache - Bordeias (Little hovel). This romanian song always makes me think about home and the people I love.
3. Melina Leon - Que sera de ti (What will be of you). This song is part of the O Clone Soundtrack, the video also is from the brasilian novela.
Spanish lyrics:http://www.lyricsdownload.com/leon-melina-que-sera-de-ti-lyrics.html
4. Amr Diab - Tamally Maak (Always with you). This one is for you because I really like the melody and the lyrics.
Arab lyrics: http://www.lyricsdownload.com/amr-diab-tamally-maak-lyrics.html
English lyrics:http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/3530822107858557928/
Marasesti - Pe aici nu se trece / Marasesti - Can't pass through here
Marasesti, Marasti, Oituz... Nu. De data asta doar Marasesti.
Razboiul de Intregire Nationala a facut ca la Marasesti sa piara peste 21 de mii de romani. Tot ceea ce ne mai aminteste de glorioasa lupta din vara anului 1917 este Mausoleul de la Marasesti, ridicat chiar pe locul unde s-au dat luptele. 18 culoare dispuse radial, 154 de cripte individuale, 9 cripte comune, o bisericuta asezata chiar in centrul constructiei si inscriptia UN OSTAS ROMAN raman cu mine dupa ce am vizitat ieri acest somptuos monument.
Cinste lor, celor care s-au jertfit pentru aceasta tara minunata, pentru acest pamant care ne-a ocrotit inca de pe vremea cand purta numele Dacia. Dumnezeu sa-i ierte!
***
Marasesti, Marasti, Oituz... No. This time only Marasesti.
The War of National Union made it possible for 21 thousands of Romanians to perish at Marasesti. The Marasesti Mausoleum, built right on the spot where the fight took place, reminds us of the glorious fights from the summer of 1917. What stays with me after visiting this magnificent monument are the 18 halls arranged in a circle, the 154 individual crypts, the 9 commune crypts, the church placed right in the middle of the building and the inscriptions A ROMANIAN SOLDIER.
Let's honor those who sacrificed themselves for this wonderful country, for this land that protected us ever since it was called Dacia. May God forgive them!
Razboiul de Intregire Nationala a facut ca la Marasesti sa piara peste 21 de mii de romani. Tot ceea ce ne mai aminteste de glorioasa lupta din vara anului 1917 este Mausoleul de la Marasesti, ridicat chiar pe locul unde s-au dat luptele. 18 culoare dispuse radial, 154 de cripte individuale, 9 cripte comune, o bisericuta asezata chiar in centrul constructiei si inscriptia UN OSTAS ROMAN raman cu mine dupa ce am vizitat ieri acest somptuos monument.
Cinste lor, celor care s-au jertfit pentru aceasta tara minunata, pentru acest pamant care ne-a ocrotit inca de pe vremea cand purta numele Dacia. Dumnezeu sa-i ierte!
***
Marasesti, Marasti, Oituz... No. This time only Marasesti.
The War of National Union made it possible for 21 thousands of Romanians to perish at Marasesti. The Marasesti Mausoleum, built right on the spot where the fight took place, reminds us of the glorious fights from the summer of 1917. What stays with me after visiting this magnificent monument are the 18 halls arranged in a circle, the 154 individual crypts, the 9 commune crypts, the church placed right in the middle of the building and the inscriptions A ROMANIAN SOLDIER.
Let's honor those who sacrificed themselves for this wonderful country, for this land that protected us ever since it was called Dacia. May God forgive them!
vineri, 27 noiembrie 2009
Selfadvices / Autosfaturi
I was looking tonight over some of my writings and I found something that I like very much:
„Time heals wounds, but the scars remain and sometimes, when we face „bad weather”, they hurt. Time has his limits.”
There are many poems written by me, even prose, which make me feel in a certain way when I read them and not because they are mine or they are very good, but because they remind me of myself in that period. It’s like I can see myself then, when I had those feelings that made me lay everything on paper. I feel a stranger to some of them, probably because I’ve changed, but I can find myself in others. I don’t consider myself as being a poet or a writer. When I write I do it only because I feel like it, to free myself from my many thoughts. And sometimes I surprise myself because I am giving to me answers, encouragement and advices trough my writings.
But I better leave all the talking to my lines:
“Nothing it’s easy in this life. A lot of effort, a lot of waiting, pain and suffering are needed. We have to give everything, everything we got and everything we are for one cause, for what we want the most, for a dream without which we could not go forward.”
“I am a fighter. I’m not afraid of anything…”
“I’ve chosen. I will remain innocent. I will be a child hidden in a mask. And you will be deceived, because I will see the CHILD and you will see the MASK.”
“My instincts are making me see the truth. It’s like seeing another dimension of the world in front of my eyes and every person it’s wearing his truth print.”
“My body is an obstacle in the path of knowledge.”
“The silence of the night it’s letting reason to search very deep…”
There would be more but I prefer to leave them on some other time. I will post in the future my favorite poem called “Indrumari” (Guidance) that has many advices. And I saved the best for last:
“Get up and move on…
Broken wings can be fixed with glue.
Broken hearts can be stitched back into one piece.”
***
Ma uitam in seara asta peste cateva din scrierile mele si am gasit ceva ce imi place foarte mult:
„Timpul vindeca ranile, dar cicatricile raman si uneori, cand mai trecem prin perioade cu “vreme rea”, ele ne dor. Are si timpul limitele lui.”
Sunt o multime de poezii scrise de mine, chiar si proza, care ma fac sa ma simt intr-un fel anume atunci cand le citesc si nu pentru ca sunt ale mele, nici pentru ca ar fi ele foarte reusite ci pentru ca imi amintesc de mine in perioada aceea. E ca si cum as putea sa ma vad pe mine atunci cand am trait sentimentele acelea care m-au facut pana la urma sa astern totul pe hartie. Ma simt oarecum straina de unele din ele, probabil pentru ca m-am schimbat, dar in altele ma regasesc. Nu ma consider o poeta sau o scriitoare. Cand scriu o fac numai pentru ca asa simt, ca sa ma eliberez de prea multe ganduri. Si uneori ma uimesc pe mine insami deoarece imi ofer prin scrierile mele raspunsuri, incurajari, sfaturi.
Dar mai bine las randurile sa vorbeasca pentru mine:
"Nimic nu e usor in viata asta. E nevoie de mult efort, de o lunga asteptare, de durere, de suferinta. E nevoie sa dam totul, tot ce avem si ce suntem pentru o cauza, pentru ceea ce ne dorim cel mai mult, pentru un vis fara de care nu am putea sa mergem inainte."
"Sunt o luptatoare, nu ma tem de nimic..."
"Eu am ales. Am sa raman inocenta. O sa fiu un copil ascuns intr-o masca. Si veti fi inselati, deoarece eu o sa vad COPILUL, iar voi veti vedea MASCA."
"Instinctul ma face sa vad adevarul. E ca si cum as vedea o alta dimensiune a lumii pe care o am in fata si fiecare persoana poarta amprenta adevarului sau."
"Trupul meu este o piedica in calea cunoasterii."
"Tacerea noptii lasa ratiunea sa caute foarte adanc..."
Si ar mai fi si altele, dar prefer sa le las pe alta data. Intr-un post viitor voi pune poezia mea preferata „Indrumari”, care contine si mai multe sfaturi. Iar pentru sfarsit am pastrat altceva ce imi place foarte mult:
"Ridica-te si mergi mai departe...
Aripile frante pot fi fixate la loc cu lipici.
Inimile frante pot fi cusute inapoi intr-o bucata."
„Time heals wounds, but the scars remain and sometimes, when we face „bad weather”, they hurt. Time has his limits.”
There are many poems written by me, even prose, which make me feel in a certain way when I read them and not because they are mine or they are very good, but because they remind me of myself in that period. It’s like I can see myself then, when I had those feelings that made me lay everything on paper. I feel a stranger to some of them, probably because I’ve changed, but I can find myself in others. I don’t consider myself as being a poet or a writer. When I write I do it only because I feel like it, to free myself from my many thoughts. And sometimes I surprise myself because I am giving to me answers, encouragement and advices trough my writings.
But I better leave all the talking to my lines:
“Nothing it’s easy in this life. A lot of effort, a lot of waiting, pain and suffering are needed. We have to give everything, everything we got and everything we are for one cause, for what we want the most, for a dream without which we could not go forward.”
“I am a fighter. I’m not afraid of anything…”
“I’ve chosen. I will remain innocent. I will be a child hidden in a mask. And you will be deceived, because I will see the CHILD and you will see the MASK.”
“My instincts are making me see the truth. It’s like seeing another dimension of the world in front of my eyes and every person it’s wearing his truth print.”
“My body is an obstacle in the path of knowledge.”
“The silence of the night it’s letting reason to search very deep…”
There would be more but I prefer to leave them on some other time. I will post in the future my favorite poem called “Indrumari” (Guidance) that has many advices. And I saved the best for last:
“Get up and move on…
Broken wings can be fixed with glue.
Broken hearts can be stitched back into one piece.”
***
Ma uitam in seara asta peste cateva din scrierile mele si am gasit ceva ce imi place foarte mult:
„Timpul vindeca ranile, dar cicatricile raman si uneori, cand mai trecem prin perioade cu “vreme rea”, ele ne dor. Are si timpul limitele lui.”
Sunt o multime de poezii scrise de mine, chiar si proza, care ma fac sa ma simt intr-un fel anume atunci cand le citesc si nu pentru ca sunt ale mele, nici pentru ca ar fi ele foarte reusite ci pentru ca imi amintesc de mine in perioada aceea. E ca si cum as putea sa ma vad pe mine atunci cand am trait sentimentele acelea care m-au facut pana la urma sa astern totul pe hartie. Ma simt oarecum straina de unele din ele, probabil pentru ca m-am schimbat, dar in altele ma regasesc. Nu ma consider o poeta sau o scriitoare. Cand scriu o fac numai pentru ca asa simt, ca sa ma eliberez de prea multe ganduri. Si uneori ma uimesc pe mine insami deoarece imi ofer prin scrierile mele raspunsuri, incurajari, sfaturi.
Dar mai bine las randurile sa vorbeasca pentru mine:
"Nimic nu e usor in viata asta. E nevoie de mult efort, de o lunga asteptare, de durere, de suferinta. E nevoie sa dam totul, tot ce avem si ce suntem pentru o cauza, pentru ceea ce ne dorim cel mai mult, pentru un vis fara de care nu am putea sa mergem inainte."
"Sunt o luptatoare, nu ma tem de nimic..."
"Eu am ales. Am sa raman inocenta. O sa fiu un copil ascuns intr-o masca. Si veti fi inselati, deoarece eu o sa vad COPILUL, iar voi veti vedea MASCA."
"Instinctul ma face sa vad adevarul. E ca si cum as vedea o alta dimensiune a lumii pe care o am in fata si fiecare persoana poarta amprenta adevarului sau."
"Trupul meu este o piedica in calea cunoasterii."
"Tacerea noptii lasa ratiunea sa caute foarte adanc..."
Si ar mai fi si altele, dar prefer sa le las pe alta data. Intr-un post viitor voi pune poezia mea preferata „Indrumari”, care contine si mai multe sfaturi. Iar pentru sfarsit am pastrat altceva ce imi place foarte mult:
"Ridica-te si mergi mai departe...
Aripile frante pot fi fixate la loc cu lipici.
Inimile frante pot fi cusute inapoi intr-o bucata."
marți, 24 noiembrie 2009
Words of wisdom
I just saw this movie that moved me, about how we should all live in peace, no matter religion or other differences. And at one moment some elders were telling this story:
He: What is Paradise?
Angels: Paradise is for the heart where love is fulfilled.
He: What is hell?
Angels: Hell is the place where there is no love.
Paradise is when I look into a child’s eyes, when I think of my children or nephews to be. Paradise is in those arms that keep me safe, protected, unharmed. Paradise is when I have no reason to cry or to be sad, when I know I am loved, when my family is happy, when good things happen, when I feel like smiling and joy bursts out of my being and contaminates everyone around me. Paradise is when I feel like I have a purpose in this world, when I am needed. Paradise is when my faith keeps me strong and I feel blessed.
Paradise may be everywhere around us: on every street, in every building, in every heart. Paradise is all over the world. We just have to keep on searching for it.
He: What is Paradise?
Angels: Paradise is for the heart where love is fulfilled.
He: What is hell?
Angels: Hell is the place where there is no love.
Paradise is when I look into a child’s eyes, when I think of my children or nephews to be. Paradise is in those arms that keep me safe, protected, unharmed. Paradise is when I have no reason to cry or to be sad, when I know I am loved, when my family is happy, when good things happen, when I feel like smiling and joy bursts out of my being and contaminates everyone around me. Paradise is when I feel like I have a purpose in this world, when I am needed. Paradise is when my faith keeps me strong and I feel blessed.
Paradise may be everywhere around us: on every street, in every building, in every heart. Paradise is all over the world. We just have to keep on searching for it.
luni, 23 noiembrie 2009
I need a miracle
AFTERLIFE - MIRACLE
There was a time when I was happy, when miracles were happening every day, when I had dreams and hopes that were unbreakable. There was a time when I believed in people and, mostly, I believed in myself. I saw no barriers then. I believed in the truth, in honesty, in good intentions. But one by one my beliefs were shook up and demolished and I realized that I had expectations, too many and too big rising too high and others did not wanted to rise up to them. I was wrong and you all showed me how wrong I was. And I have no false hopes now, I’m not expecting things, I’m just waiting, living, breathing with all my faith and love. I have things to give back to the world, but the world seems unprepared to receive them.
I need a sunrise, to feel the warm sun rays on my face, to breathe again that fresh air, to believe that everything will be alright and I’m not going to be alone. I need to recharge my batteries and restart my life.
I need a sunrise, I need a miracle, I need … .
(Take this moment, make it still
Stay forever, by my side
Make a promise, to your soul
Leave me never, that I know
It can be
But I know, it can be
Lost our way, you and me
I'm still in love with you
And you said to me
I will set you free
But I silently remain
I need a miracle this time
We need a miracle this time
(Your love has left away)
(You wash away my pain)
I remember, days gone by
Warm and tender, makes me cry
I know it can be
But I know, it can be
Lost our way, you and me
I'm still in love with you
And you said to me
I will set you free
But I silently remain
I need a miracle this time
We need a miracle this time
Miracle this time
We need a miracle this time
Miracle this time
We need a miracle this time
Miracle this time
We'll need a miracle this time)
Update
I've voted ... for the third place candidate: Antonescu.
I'm pissed off. Romanians are really stupid. They voted for the same parties that ruled this country since 1990 (the revolution) until now. And nothing good happend. In this 20 years nothing is better: no economy, no industry, no agriculture, no turism, no education, no health system, nothing new built, no infrastructure, a growing inflation rate, a growing unemployment rate, a non stable exchange rate with our curency going way down, lack of investors and others.
I've decided is time to pack up my things and leave the country before it sinks to the bottom.
U can all "live well!" like Basescu said.
But who should get "my stamp" on December 6: Basescu or Geoana?
I'm pissed off. Romanians are really stupid. They voted for the same parties that ruled this country since 1990 (the revolution) until now. And nothing good happend. In this 20 years nothing is better: no economy, no industry, no agriculture, no turism, no education, no health system, nothing new built, no infrastructure, a growing inflation rate, a growing unemployment rate, a non stable exchange rate with our curency going way down, lack of investors and others.
I've decided is time to pack up my things and leave the country before it sinks to the bottom.
U can all "live well!" like Basescu said.
But who should get "my stamp" on December 6: Basescu or Geoana?
duminică, 22 noiembrie 2009
Going to vote...
I'm going to vote the president. I'm waiting for the results next week. The future of Romania starts today.
I'm on vacation next week. I can't wait to stay home and do nothing. My sis wants us to go to Marasesti. That would be nice. I love traveling and seeing new places.
How much time do I have to wait until it will snow?
I'm on vacation next week. I can't wait to stay home and do nothing. My sis wants us to go to Marasesti. That would be nice. I love traveling and seeing new places.
How much time do I have to wait until it will snow?
vineri, 20 noiembrie 2009
2012 - The movie
Americans are still obsessed with the idea of the world ending. Seems this is the best subject that leaves enough place for the producers, screen players, directors and actors to do what they do best: imagine and act. Who knows when the world will end and how? Only God. But we are interested in the apocalypse and this kind of movies draws us to the cinema. So big bucks come out from this popular theme.
Anyway, the movie is great. The special effects make it look fantastic, the sounds are terrifying - they enhance our feelings and emotions: it has a little bit of romance and it brings out some very exploited subjects: humanity, the fight to survive no matter the cost, sense of duty, keeping faith and praying in the last moment, the supreme sacrifice.
Want to see it? Go to the cinema. You will enjoy it, I can assure you.
So…
If you would know these are the last 24 hours of your life, how would you spend them?
Who would be on your mind in the last moment?
If you would have to sacrifice your life for someone else to live, for whom would you sacrifice it?
What would you do to make sure you will survive?
Anyway, the movie is great. The special effects make it look fantastic, the sounds are terrifying - they enhance our feelings and emotions: it has a little bit of romance and it brings out some very exploited subjects: humanity, the fight to survive no matter the cost, sense of duty, keeping faith and praying in the last moment, the supreme sacrifice.
Want to see it? Go to the cinema. You will enjoy it, I can assure you.
So…
If you would know these are the last 24 hours of your life, how would you spend them?
Who would be on your mind in the last moment?
If you would have to sacrifice your life for someone else to live, for whom would you sacrifice it?
What would you do to make sure you will survive?
joi, 19 noiembrie 2009
Memories of you
I found this song that reminds me of you and of the way you make me feel.
No hizo falta nada más
Fue tan suficiente verlo en tu mirada
Clara como cristal
Me enseńsate a ver la luz
Cuando dentro de mi alma se apagaban
Mis ganas de continuar
Como si me conocieras de otra vida
Vas antecediendo todos mis instintos
Sin medida
Nadie más que tú
Sabe adivinar a donde voy
Nadie pudo descubrir
Lo que yo realmente soy
Nadie más que tú
Ha sembrado paz en mi interior
Hizo renacer mi fe
Para ver más allá del sol
Cuando amanece y tu no estás
Toda mi energía fluye diferente
Sin ti nada es igual
Mis secretos se revelan en tus brazos
Y mis días se reducen a tu espacio
Y voy cayendo poco a poco porque
Nadie más que tu
Sabe adivinar a donde voy
Nadie pudo descubrir
Lo que yo realmente soy
Nadie más que tu
Que ha sembrado paz en mi interior
Hizo renacer mi fe
Para ver más allá del sol
Como si me conocieras de otra vida...
Vas antecediendo todos mis instintos...
Nadie mas que tu nadie más que tú..
Lo que realmente soy
Nadie más, nadie más
Nadie más que tu
Hizo renacer mi fe
Para ver mas allá del sol
Más alla del sol
Es que nadie, nadie, nadie no...
Nadie más que tú
Nadie más pudo hacer
Hizo renacer mi fe
Para ver más alla del sol
No hizo falta nada más
Fue tan suficiente verlo en tu mirada
Clara como cristal
Me enseńsate a ver la luz
Cuando dentro de mi alma se apagaban
Mis ganas de continuar
Como si me conocieras de otra vida
Vas antecediendo todos mis instintos
Sin medida
Nadie más que tú
Sabe adivinar a donde voy
Nadie pudo descubrir
Lo que yo realmente soy
Nadie más que tú
Ha sembrado paz en mi interior
Hizo renacer mi fe
Para ver más allá del sol
Cuando amanece y tu no estás
Toda mi energía fluye diferente
Sin ti nada es igual
Mis secretos se revelan en tus brazos
Y mis días se reducen a tu espacio
Y voy cayendo poco a poco porque
Nadie más que tu
Sabe adivinar a donde voy
Nadie pudo descubrir
Lo que yo realmente soy
Nadie más que tu
Que ha sembrado paz en mi interior
Hizo renacer mi fe
Para ver más allá del sol
Como si me conocieras de otra vida...
Vas antecediendo todos mis instintos...
Nadie mas que tu nadie más que tú..
Lo que realmente soy
Nadie más, nadie más
Nadie más que tu
Hizo renacer mi fe
Para ver mas allá del sol
Más alla del sol
Es que nadie, nadie, nadie no...
Nadie más que tú
Nadie más pudo hacer
Hizo renacer mi fe
Para ver más alla del sol
miercuri, 18 noiembrie 2009
Life sucks.. or not?/ Viata e de rahat... sau nu?
Yes, I’m in a crisis. It’s quite normal to be in one because of the many frustrations gathered in the last months, maybe a year. And who would not be frustrated in my shoes, when there are so many dreams and hopes and wishes that are not becoming reality. With what should I begin? …
Well… at 26 I am still living with my parents and I can’t see a way to change that in the close future. At this age other women are married and have kids, their own house… I don’t. (Remark: I’m saying women although I feel like saying girls, because I can’t see myself as a woman. I feel and I look at myself as if I were 18. Somehow, I feel I can blame for this the fact that until this age I haven’t been involved in a long term relationship where “he” can make me feel as a woman. But this is another thing…) Living with my parents gives me a sense of humiliation, my pride losing the battle in front of the compromise of not doing what I want when I want it and in front of the need to conform myself to some rules that I don’t believe in. Many times privacy doesn’t exist or it’s “something that all four of us know, but the rest of the world doesn’t have to find out”. Well, I admit that I enjoy also the financial and psychological benefits: mom cooks and cleans, I only help; dad brings the money and he is not asking me to participate in the expenses, but I do it with pleasure; the comfort of my home and the joy of living with my family, the stuff that is dear to me. But sometimes these things do not compensate the feeling of inutility or of a wasted life. I have the tendency to compare all the time my achievements with those of other people and from here all the frustrations begin: I don’t have, I don’t own, I don’t… they do.
Then comes the work part, but who is totally satisfied of his job? I’ve been working here for 4 years and I don’t see any promotion or raise chance any time soon. I tried to change jobs, but when I found something I liked the payment was disappointing. Nobody is paying the true work value anymore. Even jobs with great responsibilities that require a college degree are being paid just a little over the minimum wage. What can I do then? I’m waiting, on a 700 leis payment with food tickets, I pay the bills first, then expenses and I hold on to what I have left until my next salary. If I restrain myself from spending money and I don’t delight myself but I stop at what’s absolutely necessary, I can manage to save up some cash. If not… that’s life.
In the heart’s matters I don’t know what to say. I’m not doing well, neither bad. But that’s how things are when you are in love with someone you met on the internet and you have never seen him. I usually have a hard time “managing” any relationship, even more now when things are so complicated. It’s very hard to have this kind of a relationship and to keep it balanced, because there is a great passion, everything is intense, positive tensions and energies are being born and when they can’t be displayed and consumed inside the couple, they become negative and transform themselves into fights and arguments without a real base. Yes, to me it seems easier to fight then to say “I love you, you are everything to me and I cry because I miss you so much, I pray for you every night”. I feel vulnerable when I let my true feelings and thoughts to be seen, so I prefer not saying but keeping them only for myself and, in this way, I can keep myself protected. Even if I know I can believe in him and he is never going to hurt me I still can’t open myself totally, I still try to protect myself. Many times I leave fear aside and I say what I feel and think in that moment and I feel liberated, happy, but I don’t forget that I’m just a butterfly in the wind, wind that can become anytime a tornado.
Someone asked me some day: why a guy from a country so far away? Couldn’t you find one here? I answered: I think I’ve wished him for me and God gave him to me. A long time ago, when I was a teenager, I imagined a story where I borrowed my character, personality and name to the girl in the leading role, Andreea, and I invented for her in the leading role a man that would have all the qualities and flows that I wanted my soul mate to have and I named him Rayel. And I prayed to God that this someone would exist and bring him into my life. And he made my wish come true. The resemblance is striking and it makes me ask sometimes if HE really exists or HE is only in my imagination, if this romance is not only in my head. And the more time passes, the more I realize that HE is more beautiful then I could ever imagine. And HE exists, lives and has flesh and bones like me, breaths and speaks and has this lovely voice and an extraordinary accent and HE makes me feel good about myself, HE loves me, wants me and misses me. And many times I feel him: his touch in my palms, in my blood, in my arms; his breath and his body odor, his heart beating along with mine. I know I love him, he knows I love him and I am lucky to be able to live such a story and I’m waiting impatiently the day when we will meet face to face.
So… Yes, life has its ugly, bad parts, but it also has its good moments. And most of the time when I count, the good is more important than the bad. So “heads up and with God forward”. Any sorrow passes and good days always come. My happy moment will come, when I will draw the line and look at the score: frustrations 0 – accomplishments infinity.
***
Da, m-a apucat criza. Era si normal sa ma apuce deoarece am foarte multe frustrari stranse in cateva luni, un an si ceva chiar. Si cine nu ar fi frustrat in locul meu cand ai atat de multe vise si sperante si dorinte si vezi ca nici una nu devine realitate. Cu ce sa incep? ...
Pai... la 26 de ani inca mai locuiesc cu parintii si nu vad nici o sansa in viitorul apropiat ca acest lucru sa se schimbe. La varsta aceasta alte femei sunt maritate, au si copii, casa lor... eu nu. (Observatie: spun femei desi tendinta este sa spun fete, asta pentru ca eu inca nu reusesc sa ma percep ca si femeie. Eu inca ma simt si ma privesc ca si cum as avea 18 ani. Pe undeva consider ca vina acestui lucru o poarta si faptul ca pana la varsta aceasta eu nu am avut o relatie de lunga durata in care „el” sa ma faca sa simt ca sunt femeie. Dar acesta e un alt subiect...) Faptul ca inca locuiesc cu ai mei imi da o senzatie de umilinta, mandria mea fiind de multe ori stirbita in fata compromisului de a nu face ce am chef atunci cand am chef si de a ma conforma unor reguli in care nu cred. De multe ori intimitatea nu exista sau insemana „ceva ce noi patru stim, dar restul lumii nu trebuie sa afle”. Bine, recunosc ca ma bucur si de avantajele financiare si psihologice: mama gateste si face curat, eu numai ajut; tata aduce banii si nu-mi cere sa particip la cheltuieli, dar o fac eu de placere; confortul locuintei si bucuria de a convietui cu familia, obiectele dragi. Dar uneori lucrurile astea nu compenseaza sentimentul inutilitatii si al vietii risipite. Am tendinta de a-mi compara in permanenta realizarile cu ale celorlalti si de aici se nasc frustrarile: eu nu am, nu posed, eu nu... ei da.
Apoi vine partea cu munca, dar cine e total multumit de jobul sau? Lucrez pe postul acesta de 4 ani si nu intrevad nici o sansa la promovare sau marire de salariu. Am incercat sa-mi schimb locul de munca, dar unde am gasit ceva salarizarea a fost cea care nu m-a multumit. Nimeni nu mai plateste la adevarata valoare. Chiar si joburile cu responsabilitate mare, care necesita studii superioare sunt platite cu putin peste salariul minim pe economie. Ce sa fac atunci? Mai stau asa, pe 700 de lei plus bonuri de masa, platesc facturile intai, apoi cheltuielile curente si trag de ce-mi mai ramane pana la salariul urmator. Daca ma restrang la cheltuieli, nu ma desfat cu cine stie ce si ma rezum la ce e absolut necesar, reusesc sa mai pun si un ban deoparte. Daca nu... asta e.
Pe plan sentimental n-as sti sa spun cum stau, nici bine, dar nici rau. Asa e cand esti indragostita de o persoana pe care ai cunoscut-o pe net si cu care nu te-ai vazut niciodata. Eu de obicei nu stiu cum sa „manageriez” o relatie, mai ales acum cand lucrurile sunt atat de complicate. Este foarte greu sa ai o relatie de genul acesta echilibrata, deoarece pasiunea e mare, totul se traieste cu intensitate, se nasc energii si tensiuni pozitive, care atunci cand nu pot fi manifestate si consumate in interiorul cuplului devin negative, se transforma in certuri si discutii aprinse fara un fond real. Da, mie imi e mai usor sa ma cert decat sa spun „te iubesc, esti totul pentru mine, plang de dorul tau, ma rog pentru tine in fiecare seara”. Ma simt vulnerabila atunci cand las sa se vada adevaratele mele sentimente si ganduri si de aceea prefer sa nu le spun, le tin acolo doar pentru mine si reusesc in modul acesta sa ma simt mai protejata. Si chiar daca stiu ca pot sa cred in el si ca nu ma va rani niciodata tot nu reusesc sa ma deschid total, tot incerc sa ma protejez. De multe ori las teama la o parte si spun ceea ce simt si gandesc in acel moment si ma simt eliberata, fericita, dar nu uit ca eu sunt doar un fluture in bataia vantului, vant care se poate transforma oricand in tornada.
M-a intrebat cineva intr-o zi: dar de ce un baiat dintr-o tara atat de departe? Nu puteai sa gasesti si tu unul de la noi? Eu am raspuns: cred ca eu mi l-am dorit, iar Dumnezeu mi l-a dat. Demult, pe cand eu eram adolescenta, mi-am imaginat o poveste in care am imprumutat caracterul, personalitatea si numele meu personajului feminin principal, Andreea, si pentru care am inventat un personaj masculin principal care sa aiba toate calitatile si defectele pe care mi le-am dorit eu la jumatatea mea si i-am pus numele Rayel. Si m-am rugat la Dumnezeu ca acest cineva sa existe si sa il aduca in viata mea. Si el mi-a indeplinit dorinta. Asemanarile sunt izbitoare si ma fac sa ma intreb uneori daca EL exista cu adevarat sau e numai in imaginatia mea, daca nu cumva idila aceasta este doar in capul meu. Si cu cat trece mai mult timp, cu atat realizez ca EL este mult mai frumos decat mi-am putut imagina eu. Si exista, traieste si e din carne si oase ca si mine, respira si vorbeste si are o voce frumoasa si un accent superb si ma face sa ma simt bine in pielea mea, ma iubeste, ma doreste si ii e dor de mine. Iar eu de multe ori il simt: in palmele mele atingerea sa, in sangele meu, in bratele mele; respiratia si parfumul trupului sau, inima lui batand o data cu a mea. Stiu ca il iubesc, si el stie ca il iubesc si sunt norocoasa ca pot traii o asemenea poveste si astept cu nerabdare ziua in care ne vom intalni fata in fata.
Asa ca... Da, viata are partile ei proaste, urate, dar are si momentele ei bune. Si de cele mai multe ori, cand le pun in balanta, cele bune sunt mai importante decat cele rele. Asa ca „capul sus si cu Dumnezeu inainte”. Orice suparare trece si totdeauna vin si zile mai bune. Pana la urma va sosi si momentul meu de fericire, cand o sa trag linie si o sa-mi calculez scorul: frustrari 0 - realizari infinit.
Well… at 26 I am still living with my parents and I can’t see a way to change that in the close future. At this age other women are married and have kids, their own house… I don’t. (Remark: I’m saying women although I feel like saying girls, because I can’t see myself as a woman. I feel and I look at myself as if I were 18. Somehow, I feel I can blame for this the fact that until this age I haven’t been involved in a long term relationship where “he” can make me feel as a woman. But this is another thing…) Living with my parents gives me a sense of humiliation, my pride losing the battle in front of the compromise of not doing what I want when I want it and in front of the need to conform myself to some rules that I don’t believe in. Many times privacy doesn’t exist or it’s “something that all four of us know, but the rest of the world doesn’t have to find out”. Well, I admit that I enjoy also the financial and psychological benefits: mom cooks and cleans, I only help; dad brings the money and he is not asking me to participate in the expenses, but I do it with pleasure; the comfort of my home and the joy of living with my family, the stuff that is dear to me. But sometimes these things do not compensate the feeling of inutility or of a wasted life. I have the tendency to compare all the time my achievements with those of other people and from here all the frustrations begin: I don’t have, I don’t own, I don’t… they do.
Then comes the work part, but who is totally satisfied of his job? I’ve been working here for 4 years and I don’t see any promotion or raise chance any time soon. I tried to change jobs, but when I found something I liked the payment was disappointing. Nobody is paying the true work value anymore. Even jobs with great responsibilities that require a college degree are being paid just a little over the minimum wage. What can I do then? I’m waiting, on a 700 leis payment with food tickets, I pay the bills first, then expenses and I hold on to what I have left until my next salary. If I restrain myself from spending money and I don’t delight myself but I stop at what’s absolutely necessary, I can manage to save up some cash. If not… that’s life.
In the heart’s matters I don’t know what to say. I’m not doing well, neither bad. But that’s how things are when you are in love with someone you met on the internet and you have never seen him. I usually have a hard time “managing” any relationship, even more now when things are so complicated. It’s very hard to have this kind of a relationship and to keep it balanced, because there is a great passion, everything is intense, positive tensions and energies are being born and when they can’t be displayed and consumed inside the couple, they become negative and transform themselves into fights and arguments without a real base. Yes, to me it seems easier to fight then to say “I love you, you are everything to me and I cry because I miss you so much, I pray for you every night”. I feel vulnerable when I let my true feelings and thoughts to be seen, so I prefer not saying but keeping them only for myself and, in this way, I can keep myself protected. Even if I know I can believe in him and he is never going to hurt me I still can’t open myself totally, I still try to protect myself. Many times I leave fear aside and I say what I feel and think in that moment and I feel liberated, happy, but I don’t forget that I’m just a butterfly in the wind, wind that can become anytime a tornado.
Someone asked me some day: why a guy from a country so far away? Couldn’t you find one here? I answered: I think I’ve wished him for me and God gave him to me. A long time ago, when I was a teenager, I imagined a story where I borrowed my character, personality and name to the girl in the leading role, Andreea, and I invented for her in the leading role a man that would have all the qualities and flows that I wanted my soul mate to have and I named him Rayel. And I prayed to God that this someone would exist and bring him into my life. And he made my wish come true. The resemblance is striking and it makes me ask sometimes if HE really exists or HE is only in my imagination, if this romance is not only in my head. And the more time passes, the more I realize that HE is more beautiful then I could ever imagine. And HE exists, lives and has flesh and bones like me, breaths and speaks and has this lovely voice and an extraordinary accent and HE makes me feel good about myself, HE loves me, wants me and misses me. And many times I feel him: his touch in my palms, in my blood, in my arms; his breath and his body odor, his heart beating along with mine. I know I love him, he knows I love him and I am lucky to be able to live such a story and I’m waiting impatiently the day when we will meet face to face.
So… Yes, life has its ugly, bad parts, but it also has its good moments. And most of the time when I count, the good is more important than the bad. So “heads up and with God forward”. Any sorrow passes and good days always come. My happy moment will come, when I will draw the line and look at the score: frustrations 0 – accomplishments infinity.
***
Da, m-a apucat criza. Era si normal sa ma apuce deoarece am foarte multe frustrari stranse in cateva luni, un an si ceva chiar. Si cine nu ar fi frustrat in locul meu cand ai atat de multe vise si sperante si dorinte si vezi ca nici una nu devine realitate. Cu ce sa incep? ...
Pai... la 26 de ani inca mai locuiesc cu parintii si nu vad nici o sansa in viitorul apropiat ca acest lucru sa se schimbe. La varsta aceasta alte femei sunt maritate, au si copii, casa lor... eu nu. (Observatie: spun femei desi tendinta este sa spun fete, asta pentru ca eu inca nu reusesc sa ma percep ca si femeie. Eu inca ma simt si ma privesc ca si cum as avea 18 ani. Pe undeva consider ca vina acestui lucru o poarta si faptul ca pana la varsta aceasta eu nu am avut o relatie de lunga durata in care „el” sa ma faca sa simt ca sunt femeie. Dar acesta e un alt subiect...) Faptul ca inca locuiesc cu ai mei imi da o senzatie de umilinta, mandria mea fiind de multe ori stirbita in fata compromisului de a nu face ce am chef atunci cand am chef si de a ma conforma unor reguli in care nu cred. De multe ori intimitatea nu exista sau insemana „ceva ce noi patru stim, dar restul lumii nu trebuie sa afle”. Bine, recunosc ca ma bucur si de avantajele financiare si psihologice: mama gateste si face curat, eu numai ajut; tata aduce banii si nu-mi cere sa particip la cheltuieli, dar o fac eu de placere; confortul locuintei si bucuria de a convietui cu familia, obiectele dragi. Dar uneori lucrurile astea nu compenseaza sentimentul inutilitatii si al vietii risipite. Am tendinta de a-mi compara in permanenta realizarile cu ale celorlalti si de aici se nasc frustrarile: eu nu am, nu posed, eu nu... ei da.
Apoi vine partea cu munca, dar cine e total multumit de jobul sau? Lucrez pe postul acesta de 4 ani si nu intrevad nici o sansa la promovare sau marire de salariu. Am incercat sa-mi schimb locul de munca, dar unde am gasit ceva salarizarea a fost cea care nu m-a multumit. Nimeni nu mai plateste la adevarata valoare. Chiar si joburile cu responsabilitate mare, care necesita studii superioare sunt platite cu putin peste salariul minim pe economie. Ce sa fac atunci? Mai stau asa, pe 700 de lei plus bonuri de masa, platesc facturile intai, apoi cheltuielile curente si trag de ce-mi mai ramane pana la salariul urmator. Daca ma restrang la cheltuieli, nu ma desfat cu cine stie ce si ma rezum la ce e absolut necesar, reusesc sa mai pun si un ban deoparte. Daca nu... asta e.
Pe plan sentimental n-as sti sa spun cum stau, nici bine, dar nici rau. Asa e cand esti indragostita de o persoana pe care ai cunoscut-o pe net si cu care nu te-ai vazut niciodata. Eu de obicei nu stiu cum sa „manageriez” o relatie, mai ales acum cand lucrurile sunt atat de complicate. Este foarte greu sa ai o relatie de genul acesta echilibrata, deoarece pasiunea e mare, totul se traieste cu intensitate, se nasc energii si tensiuni pozitive, care atunci cand nu pot fi manifestate si consumate in interiorul cuplului devin negative, se transforma in certuri si discutii aprinse fara un fond real. Da, mie imi e mai usor sa ma cert decat sa spun „te iubesc, esti totul pentru mine, plang de dorul tau, ma rog pentru tine in fiecare seara”. Ma simt vulnerabila atunci cand las sa se vada adevaratele mele sentimente si ganduri si de aceea prefer sa nu le spun, le tin acolo doar pentru mine si reusesc in modul acesta sa ma simt mai protejata. Si chiar daca stiu ca pot sa cred in el si ca nu ma va rani niciodata tot nu reusesc sa ma deschid total, tot incerc sa ma protejez. De multe ori las teama la o parte si spun ceea ce simt si gandesc in acel moment si ma simt eliberata, fericita, dar nu uit ca eu sunt doar un fluture in bataia vantului, vant care se poate transforma oricand in tornada.
M-a intrebat cineva intr-o zi: dar de ce un baiat dintr-o tara atat de departe? Nu puteai sa gasesti si tu unul de la noi? Eu am raspuns: cred ca eu mi l-am dorit, iar Dumnezeu mi l-a dat. Demult, pe cand eu eram adolescenta, mi-am imaginat o poveste in care am imprumutat caracterul, personalitatea si numele meu personajului feminin principal, Andreea, si pentru care am inventat un personaj masculin principal care sa aiba toate calitatile si defectele pe care mi le-am dorit eu la jumatatea mea si i-am pus numele Rayel. Si m-am rugat la Dumnezeu ca acest cineva sa existe si sa il aduca in viata mea. Si el mi-a indeplinit dorinta. Asemanarile sunt izbitoare si ma fac sa ma intreb uneori daca EL exista cu adevarat sau e numai in imaginatia mea, daca nu cumva idila aceasta este doar in capul meu. Si cu cat trece mai mult timp, cu atat realizez ca EL este mult mai frumos decat mi-am putut imagina eu. Si exista, traieste si e din carne si oase ca si mine, respira si vorbeste si are o voce frumoasa si un accent superb si ma face sa ma simt bine in pielea mea, ma iubeste, ma doreste si ii e dor de mine. Iar eu de multe ori il simt: in palmele mele atingerea sa, in sangele meu, in bratele mele; respiratia si parfumul trupului sau, inima lui batand o data cu a mea. Stiu ca il iubesc, si el stie ca il iubesc si sunt norocoasa ca pot traii o asemenea poveste si astept cu nerabdare ziua in care ne vom intalni fata in fata.
Asa ca... Da, viata are partile ei proaste, urate, dar are si momentele ei bune. Si de cele mai multe ori, cand le pun in balanta, cele bune sunt mai importante decat cele rele. Asa ca „capul sus si cu Dumnezeu inainte”. Orice suparare trece si totdeauna vin si zile mai bune. Pana la urma va sosi si momentul meu de fericire, cand o sa trag linie si o sa-mi calculez scorul: frustrari 0 - realizari infinit.
joi, 12 noiembrie 2009
I miss you like crazy
For the one I love, that I miss every day, every minute, every second.
Even though its been so long,
My love for you keeps going strong.
I remember the things that we used to do,
A kiss in the rain til' the sun shined through,
I'd try to deny it, but I'm still in love with you.
I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy.
Ever since you went away
Every hour of every day.
I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy.
No matter what I say or do,
There's just no getting over you.
I can see the love shining in your eyes
And it comes as such a sweet surprise.
If seeing's believing its worth the wait,
So hold me and tell me its not too late.
We're so good together, we're starting forever now.
And I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy.
Ever since you went away,
Every hour of every day.
I miss you like crazy,
I miss you baby.
A love like ours will never end,
Just touch me and we're there again.
Just one night
And we'll have that magic feeling like we used to do.
Hold on tight
and whatever comes our way we're gonna make it through.
If seeing's believing it's worth the wait,
so hold me and tell me it's not too late
We're so good together, we're starting forever now
And I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy.
No matter what I say or do
there's just no getting over you.
And I miss you (baby), I miss you (baby).
All the tender love you gave me
When a feeling gets this strong,
You know the real thing come along.
And I miss you,
I miss you like crazy baby.
Only your sweet love can save me.
I miss you like crazy, a love like ours will never end,
Just touch me and we're there again.
Miss you like crazy, I miss you like crazy...
Even though its been so long,
My love for you keeps going strong.
I remember the things that we used to do,
A kiss in the rain til' the sun shined through,
I'd try to deny it, but I'm still in love with you.
I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy.
Ever since you went away
Every hour of every day.
I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy.
No matter what I say or do,
There's just no getting over you.
I can see the love shining in your eyes
And it comes as such a sweet surprise.
If seeing's believing its worth the wait,
So hold me and tell me its not too late.
We're so good together, we're starting forever now.
And I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy.
Ever since you went away,
Every hour of every day.
I miss you like crazy,
I miss you baby.
A love like ours will never end,
Just touch me and we're there again.
Just one night
And we'll have that magic feeling like we used to do.
Hold on tight
and whatever comes our way we're gonna make it through.
If seeing's believing it's worth the wait,
so hold me and tell me it's not too late
We're so good together, we're starting forever now
And I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy.
No matter what I say or do
there's just no getting over you.
And I miss you (baby), I miss you (baby).
All the tender love you gave me
When a feeling gets this strong,
You know the real thing come along.
And I miss you,
I miss you like crazy baby.
Only your sweet love can save me.
I miss you like crazy, a love like ours will never end,
Just touch me and we're there again.
Miss you like crazy, I miss you like crazy...
miercuri, 4 noiembrie 2009
I'm sad. I need therapy.
Bad moments, bad days, bad months (or years) keep coming. It seems like I'm not getting back on track to soon. I'm so moody these days, it might be the weather. I never liked cold seasons. Or it just might be bad people. I hate not getting what I want.
Or it might be just a bad period. I'm sure the stars are to blame.
Anyways, I need to do something, I need therapy, I need things that can make me happy.
The first one I choose is music therapy. Music calms my nerves. Music keeps me smiling. I remember this song that made me laugh:
Natasha Bedingfield - I wanna have your babies
or this one that gets me into THE MOOD: John Meyer - Your body is a wonderland.
There are more that make me dance:
Amr Diab - Habibi ya nour el ain ,
Sergio Mendes - Magdalenha
And there is a very long list of songs that are sad and make me cry. Crying is good, releases all the tensions and after I feel better, at least for a couple of days. My favourites:
Leona Lewis -Run
Usher - Moving mountains
Alicia Keys - Like you'll never see me again
Shania Twain - From this moment
Katy Perry - Thinking of you
Marius Mihalache - Bordeias
Stereophonics - Maybe tomorrow
Natasha Bedingfield - I bruise easily
Jennifer Lopez - Tu; Sola; Por ariesgarnos; Apresurate; Porche te marchas
Ricky Martin - Perdido sin ti; Te extrano, te olvido, te amo; You stay with me
Eros Ramazzotti - Musica e; Un altra te
Another therapy i like is aromatherapy. My favourite aroma is vanilla. I use it now in my room. But I also like strawberry, lemon, cinamon and jasmine.
And there is also colour therapy that i use on my clothes. Light colours make me happy, blue calms my nerves, intense red makes me feel high on energy and passionate, green is my colour of peace and white is how I dreamed and see heaven. I also love curves especially when the white-black combinations are used.
The last therapy I use is breathing therapy. If I am sad I just stand somewhere I like and meditate and breathe heavily in and out until I feel my lungs saturated with oxigen. This is close to the tehnique used when our heart beats really fast and we feel like we don't have enough air to breath.
Or it might be just a bad period. I'm sure the stars are to blame.
Anyways, I need to do something, I need therapy, I need things that can make me happy.
The first one I choose is music therapy. Music calms my nerves. Music keeps me smiling. I remember this song that made me laugh:
Natasha Bedingfield - I wanna have your babies
or this one that gets me into THE MOOD: John Meyer - Your body is a wonderland.
There are more that make me dance:
Amr Diab - Habibi ya nour el ain ,
Sergio Mendes - Magdalenha
And there is a very long list of songs that are sad and make me cry. Crying is good, releases all the tensions and after I feel better, at least for a couple of days. My favourites:
Leona Lewis -Run
Usher - Moving mountains
Alicia Keys - Like you'll never see me again
Shania Twain - From this moment
Katy Perry - Thinking of you
Marius Mihalache - Bordeias
Stereophonics - Maybe tomorrow
Natasha Bedingfield - I bruise easily
Jennifer Lopez - Tu; Sola; Por ariesgarnos; Apresurate; Porche te marchas
Ricky Martin - Perdido sin ti; Te extrano, te olvido, te amo; You stay with me
Eros Ramazzotti - Musica e; Un altra te
Another therapy i like is aromatherapy. My favourite aroma is vanilla. I use it now in my room. But I also like strawberry, lemon, cinamon and jasmine.
And there is also colour therapy that i use on my clothes. Light colours make me happy, blue calms my nerves, intense red makes me feel high on energy and passionate, green is my colour of peace and white is how I dreamed and see heaven. I also love curves especially when the white-black combinations are used.
The last therapy I use is breathing therapy. If I am sad I just stand somewhere I like and meditate and breathe heavily in and out until I feel my lungs saturated with oxigen. This is close to the tehnique used when our heart beats really fast and we feel like we don't have enough air to breath.
marți, 3 noiembrie 2009
Run / Fugi
Leona Lewis - Run
Sometimes it's hard to say sorry. Sometimes it's hard to find the right words to express what you feel. Sometimes all it takes is to let time flow.
I feel weird right now, like i'm watching my life go on without me. All is happening to fast and I don't have enough time to react, to control it. I'm tired.
It's almost 4 in the morning and, instead of sleeping, I would step outside for a run and I wouldn't stop until I would feel like my heart is exploding in my chest and there is not enough air to breath. I feel lost, from myself, from you, from what I used to know and I liked, from what I used to feel. I'm alone, I feel alone, although there was a time when I wasn't feeling like this. I got lost along the way and I'm afraid I lost you also.
To many things are on my mind now and I can't feel at peace with no one, not even with myself. And I'm lost and afraid, and alone, and I got so tired and all i need now is to run, run for my life, run and cry.
***
Uneori e greu sa spui "imi pare rau". Uneori e greu sa gasesti cuvintele potrivite care sa exprime ceea ce simti. Uneori e nevoie doar sa lasi timpul sa treaca.
Ma simt ciudat acum, de parca as fi spectatoare la viata mea. Totul se intampla prea repede iar eu nu am timp sa reactionez, sa controlez ceva. Am obosit.
E aproape 4 dimineata iar eu, in loc sa dorm, as iesi afara sa alerg si nu m-as mai opri pana nu as simti ca-mi explodeaza inima in piept si ca nu mai am aer sa respir. Ma simt pierduta, de mine, de tine, de ceea ce stiam si imi placea, de ceea ce simteam candva. Sunt singura, ma simt singura, desi a fost o vreme cand nu ma simteam astfel. M-am pierdut undeva pe drum si ma tem ca te-am pierdut si pe tine.
Ma gandesc la prea multe lucruri acum si nu ma simt impacata cu nimeni, nici macar cu mine insami. Si sunt pierduta si mi-e teama, sunt singura si sunt atat de obosita si tot ceea ce imi trebuie acum este sa fug, sa fug pentru viata mea, sa fug si sa plang.
John Legend - Save Room
Say that you'll stay a little
dont say bye-bye tonight
say you'll be mine
just a little bit of love
is worth a moment of your time.
Knockin' on your door just a little
it's so cold outside tonight
let's get a fire burning oh I know I
'll keep it burning bright
if your stay, wont you save, save
[Chorus]Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love
Save a little, save a little for me
Won't you save a little
Save a little for me
This just might hurt a little
love hurts sometimes when you do it right
dont be afraid of a little bit of pain
pleasure is on the other side.
Let down your guard just a little
i'll keep you safe in these arms of mine
hold on to me pretty baby
you will see I can be all you need if you stay
won't you save, save
[Chorus] Oh c'mon, make time to live a little
don't let this moment slip by tonight
you'll never know what you're missing
'till you try, i'll keep you satisfied if you stay
won't you save, save [Chorus]
This song says it all, no need for me to say anything else.
dont say bye-bye tonight
say you'll be mine
just a little bit of love
is worth a moment of your time.
Knockin' on your door just a little
it's so cold outside tonight
let's get a fire burning oh I know I
'll keep it burning bright
if your stay, wont you save, save
[Chorus]Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love
Save a little, save a little for me
Won't you save a little
Save a little for me
This just might hurt a little
love hurts sometimes when you do it right
dont be afraid of a little bit of pain
pleasure is on the other side.
Let down your guard just a little
i'll keep you safe in these arms of mine
hold on to me pretty baby
you will see I can be all you need if you stay
won't you save, save
[Chorus] Oh c'mon, make time to live a little
don't let this moment slip by tonight
you'll never know what you're missing
'till you try, i'll keep you satisfied if you stay
won't you save, save [Chorus]
This song says it all, no need for me to say anything else.
marți, 20 octombrie 2009
From this moment on - Shania Twain & Brian White
(I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better for worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on
From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on
I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on
You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on.
Isn't this the most beautiful love declaration ever?
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better for worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on
From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on
I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on
You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on.
Isn't this the most beautiful love declaration ever?
luni, 21 septembrie 2009
Frumoasa si Bestia / Beauty and the Beast
Toata lumea il stie pe Walt Disney, nu? Si toti cunoastem povestea asta cu Belle si Bestia.
Ea - frumoasa, visatoare, culta, gingasa, echilibrata, saraca. El - urat, rece, puternic, temperamental, arogant, bogat. Doua lumi total diferite, dar care se atrag. Oare noi nu suntem la fel? Noi, in relatiile noastre nu ne purtam la fel ca ei, Belle si Bestia?
In oricare relatie unul din parteneri este mai puternic decat celalalt, mai fragil, mai supus sau mai calm. Ne asumam un rol de la inceput sau n-il descoperim pe parcurs, cand incepem sa ne cunoastem cu adevarat, atat intre noi cat si pe noi insine. Cine spune ca stie totul despre el insusi nu stie de fapt nimic, cine spune ca el nu se va schimba niciodata este cel mai mare mincinos. O relatie te schimba, in bine sau in rau, te transforma, te provoaca, te domina. E alegerea ta cine vei fi dupa o zi, dupa o luna, dupa un an... mai puternic sau mai slab, sclav sau stapan sau undeva la mijloc, pastrand echilibrul.
Asa ca intreaba-te cine ai fost, cine esti si cine vei deveni. Iti place persoana aceea din viitorul tau? Atunci mergi mai departe in relatia asta. Daca nu iti place atunci schimba-te, spunei celuilalt adio si cauta ceva mai bun pentru tine. Stiu oameni care au avut curaj sa faca pasul asta si acum sunt in sfarsit fericiti. Intotdeauna se poate si mai bine.
Dar atunci cand iubesti prea mult si crezi in dragostea voastra e greu sa renunti la ce ai, chiar daca uneori nu ai nimic decat manunchiul asta de sentimente: iubire amestecata cu ura, speranta cu neincredere, implinire cu suferinta. Si acesta este genul de relatie in care cei doi au foarte clar definite rolurile: unul va fi Frumoasa in timp ce celalalt va fi Bestia. Unul isi va dori sa fie iubit iar celalalt isi va dori sa daruiasca iubire, unul va domina iar celalalt se va lasa ingenuncheat, unul va fi crud iar celalalt milostiv. Dar la final exista echilibru: amandoi castiga pentru ca relatia asta ii transforma. Cel puternic invata sa se lase stapanit, cucerit, in timp ce acela fragil invata gustul puterii si intelege ca oamenii, prin natura lor, pot fi atat buni, cat si rai, iar acea malitiozitate, de cele mai multe ori nu e decat o masca care ascunde un suflet sensibil, foarte usor de ranit.
Dar poate ca Frumoasa intelesese rolul ei din prima clipa cand a privit Bestia in ochi.
***
Everybody knows Walt Disney, isn’t so? And we all know this story about Belle and the Beast.
She – beautiful, dreamy, literate, delicate, balanced, poor. He – ugly, cold, strong, short tempered, prideful, rich. Two totally different worlds, but who are attracted to each other. Aren’t we the same? In our relationships don’t we act just like them, like Belle and the Beast?
One of the partners is always stronger, more fragile, and more submissive or more calm then the other, in every relation. We are assuming a role-play from the beginning or we are discovering it on the way, when we begin to really know each other or thyself. Who says that he knows everything there is about him actually doesn’t know a thing, who says he will never change is the greatest liar. A relationship changes who you are for the better or for the worst, it transforms you, provokes you, and dominates you. It’s your choice who you’re going to be after one day, one month or one year… stronger or weaker, slave or master or somewhere in between, keeping the balance.
So ask yourself who were you, who are you and who you will became. Do you like that person from your future? Then go on in this relationship. If you don’t like it then change yourself, say goodbye to the other one and search better for you. I know people who had enough courage to make this step and now they are finally happy. You can always do better.
But when you love too much and you believe in your love it’s hard to give up on what you have, even if sometimes all you have is a bunch of these feelings: love mixed with hate, hope with disbelief, accomplished with hurt. And this is that kind of relation where both are playing these roles: one will be Beauty while the other one will be Beast. One will wish to be loved while the other will want to give love, one will dominate and the other one will let himself knelt, one will be cruel and the other one merciful. But in the end there is balance: they both win because this relationship transforms them. The strong one learns to let himself mastered, conquered, while the fragile one learns the taste of power and understands that people, by their nature, can be good and bad, and this malice, most of the times is only a mask that hides a very sensible, easy to hurt soul.
But maybe Beauty understood her role from the first moment she looked into the Beasts eyes.
Ea - frumoasa, visatoare, culta, gingasa, echilibrata, saraca. El - urat, rece, puternic, temperamental, arogant, bogat. Doua lumi total diferite, dar care se atrag. Oare noi nu suntem la fel? Noi, in relatiile noastre nu ne purtam la fel ca ei, Belle si Bestia?
In oricare relatie unul din parteneri este mai puternic decat celalalt, mai fragil, mai supus sau mai calm. Ne asumam un rol de la inceput sau n-il descoperim pe parcurs, cand incepem sa ne cunoastem cu adevarat, atat intre noi cat si pe noi insine. Cine spune ca stie totul despre el insusi nu stie de fapt nimic, cine spune ca el nu se va schimba niciodata este cel mai mare mincinos. O relatie te schimba, in bine sau in rau, te transforma, te provoaca, te domina. E alegerea ta cine vei fi dupa o zi, dupa o luna, dupa un an... mai puternic sau mai slab, sclav sau stapan sau undeva la mijloc, pastrand echilibrul.
Asa ca intreaba-te cine ai fost, cine esti si cine vei deveni. Iti place persoana aceea din viitorul tau? Atunci mergi mai departe in relatia asta. Daca nu iti place atunci schimba-te, spunei celuilalt adio si cauta ceva mai bun pentru tine. Stiu oameni care au avut curaj sa faca pasul asta si acum sunt in sfarsit fericiti. Intotdeauna se poate si mai bine.
Dar atunci cand iubesti prea mult si crezi in dragostea voastra e greu sa renunti la ce ai, chiar daca uneori nu ai nimic decat manunchiul asta de sentimente: iubire amestecata cu ura, speranta cu neincredere, implinire cu suferinta. Si acesta este genul de relatie in care cei doi au foarte clar definite rolurile: unul va fi Frumoasa in timp ce celalalt va fi Bestia. Unul isi va dori sa fie iubit iar celalalt isi va dori sa daruiasca iubire, unul va domina iar celalalt se va lasa ingenuncheat, unul va fi crud iar celalalt milostiv. Dar la final exista echilibru: amandoi castiga pentru ca relatia asta ii transforma. Cel puternic invata sa se lase stapanit, cucerit, in timp ce acela fragil invata gustul puterii si intelege ca oamenii, prin natura lor, pot fi atat buni, cat si rai, iar acea malitiozitate, de cele mai multe ori nu e decat o masca care ascunde un suflet sensibil, foarte usor de ranit.
Dar poate ca Frumoasa intelesese rolul ei din prima clipa cand a privit Bestia in ochi.
***
Everybody knows Walt Disney, isn’t so? And we all know this story about Belle and the Beast.
She – beautiful, dreamy, literate, delicate, balanced, poor. He – ugly, cold, strong, short tempered, prideful, rich. Two totally different worlds, but who are attracted to each other. Aren’t we the same? In our relationships don’t we act just like them, like Belle and the Beast?
One of the partners is always stronger, more fragile, and more submissive or more calm then the other, in every relation. We are assuming a role-play from the beginning or we are discovering it on the way, when we begin to really know each other or thyself. Who says that he knows everything there is about him actually doesn’t know a thing, who says he will never change is the greatest liar. A relationship changes who you are for the better or for the worst, it transforms you, provokes you, and dominates you. It’s your choice who you’re going to be after one day, one month or one year… stronger or weaker, slave or master or somewhere in between, keeping the balance.
So ask yourself who were you, who are you and who you will became. Do you like that person from your future? Then go on in this relationship. If you don’t like it then change yourself, say goodbye to the other one and search better for you. I know people who had enough courage to make this step and now they are finally happy. You can always do better.
But when you love too much and you believe in your love it’s hard to give up on what you have, even if sometimes all you have is a bunch of these feelings: love mixed with hate, hope with disbelief, accomplished with hurt. And this is that kind of relation where both are playing these roles: one will be Beauty while the other one will be Beast. One will wish to be loved while the other will want to give love, one will dominate and the other one will let himself knelt, one will be cruel and the other one merciful. But in the end there is balance: they both win because this relationship transforms them. The strong one learns to let himself mastered, conquered, while the fragile one learns the taste of power and understands that people, by their nature, can be good and bad, and this malice, most of the times is only a mask that hides a very sensible, easy to hurt soul.
But maybe Beauty understood her role from the first moment she looked into the Beasts eyes.
joi, 17 septembrie 2009
Voi fi intotdeauna cu tine / I will always be with you
Am citit urmatoarele randuri pe blogul lui Cabral (cabral.ro) si ma tot gandesc la ele de atunci. Vai, cata dreptate poate avea! Oare de ce ma regasesc in ele?
***
Prima clipa, prima discutie in care ii simti respiratia alunecandu-ti pe piept, prima privire in suflet, primele vorbe… primele minciuni.
Suna dur “minciuni“, stiu, dar… hai sa incercam sa privim cu sinceritate. Ce stii, in acel moment despre ea? Cat de bine-l cunosti? Cat de bine te cunosti tu in relatia aia, foarte proaspata, cat de bine va cunoasteti chimia, pe ce-ti bazezi promisiunea aia?
- Te iubesc, voi fi intotdeauna cu tine!
- Esti sigur?
- Mai sigur decat orice pe lumea asta!
Da, sigur! Ce stii in acel moment? C-o iubesti, ca te face sa te simti asa cum nu te-ai mai simtit, parca, niciodata! Te face sa simti ca il adori, astepti cu nerabdare fluturasii din stomac, caci ti-i da, mai ales atunci cand te saruta si te priveste cu privirea aia, aia speciala, care te face sa te simti cea mai frumoasa creatie a lumii… Asta stii, pe asta te poti baza. Dar, acest mic nimic iti conteaza in respectivul moment infim al vietii tale mai mult decat ce va sa fie si de doua ori decat tot ce-a fost…
- Ce-ti doresti de la viata asta?
- Pe tine, numai pe tine, acum, maine, pentru totdeauna… tu!
Asa ne incepem relatiile, mai mult sau mai putin cu minciuna asta, sau una vecina ei, promitem lucruri mari, ne promitem noua ca vom fi mai buni, altfel, ca nu vom repeta greselile trecutului… ca vom iubi atat de frumos incat povestea asta nu se va termina vreodata.
Dar uitam, caci suntem oameni, ca am promis fix acelasi lucru intr-o anumita relatie ce a trecut. La fel am zis, “Intotdeauna cu tine…!“, dar n-a fost asa, ne-am despartit, am uitat – sau nu – am mers mai departe si… acum iubim din nou.
Cand am mintit, atunci sau acum? Ne-am proiectat si atunci umbrele de indragostiti pe peretele de fum al unui viitor care astazi e realitate, si pe peretele ala ne vedeam atunci “Intotdeauna impreuna.”. Numai ca umbrele indragostitilor s-au schimbat, una dintre siluete a disparut, acum e alta, si in acelasi fel de imbratisare ne proiectam din nou intr-un promis “Intotdeauna cu tine!“.
Am mintit atunci? Mintim acum din nou? Am mintit de fiecare data?
Caci, cum facem, vom alege sa fim in continuare, in continuarea acelei minciuni, alaturi de fostul? Riscam asa sa ne erodam prezentul sau lasam minciuna aia deoparte si ii zambim ingaduitori asteia noi?
De ce nu spunem “Azi impreuna!” si facem in asa fel incat sa ne tinem de cuvant cat mai frumos posibil?
**********
I’ve read the next lines on Cabral’s blog (cabral.ro) and I’m thinking and thinking about them since then. Wow, he is so right! Why do I find myself in them?
***
First moment, first conversation when you feel your breath on your chest, first look into the soul, first words... first lies.
Sounds harsh „lies”, I know, but ... let’s try to look at this with honesty. What do you know about her in that moment? How well do you know him? How well do you know yourself in that relationship, so fresh, how well do you know the chemistry of you two, what reason you have to make that promise?
- I love you; I will always be with you!
- Are you sure?
- Surer then anything else!
Yeah, sure! What do you know in that moment? That you love her, that she makes you feel like you, maybe, never felt before! He makes you feel like you adore him, you’re waiting impatiently for the stomach butterflies, because you get those from him, mostly when he kisses you and he looks at you with that look, that special one, which makes you feel the most beautiful creation in the world. This is what you know, you can count on this. But, this tiny nothing counts in this little moment of your life more then what will be and twice more then what was…
- What do you want from this life?
- You, only you, now, tomorrow, always… you!
This is how we start our relations, more or less with this lie, or with one close to it, we promise big things, we promise to ourselves that we are going to be better, different, that we are not going to repeat the mistakes from the past… that we will love so beautiful that the story will never end.
Because we are human we forget that we promised the same thing in a previous relation. We said the same thing “always with you…!”, but it wasn’t like that, we broke up, we forgot – or we didn’t – we moved forward and… now we love again.
When did we lie, then or now? Then we projected our lovers’ shadows on the smoke wall of a future that today became reality, and on that wall we used to see us “always together”. Only that the lovers shadows have changed, one of the silhouettes disappeared, now there is a new one, and in the same embrace we project ourselves again in a new promised “always with you”.
Did we lie then? Are we lying now, again? Did we lie every time?
But what are we going to do; we are going to stay in that lie, by the ex’s side? Do we risk eroding away the present or we are going to leave that lie aside and kindly smile to this new one?
Why aren’t we saying “today together” and trying to keep our word the best way possible?
***
Prima clipa, prima discutie in care ii simti respiratia alunecandu-ti pe piept, prima privire in suflet, primele vorbe… primele minciuni.
Suna dur “minciuni“, stiu, dar… hai sa incercam sa privim cu sinceritate. Ce stii, in acel moment despre ea? Cat de bine-l cunosti? Cat de bine te cunosti tu in relatia aia, foarte proaspata, cat de bine va cunoasteti chimia, pe ce-ti bazezi promisiunea aia?
- Te iubesc, voi fi intotdeauna cu tine!
- Esti sigur?
- Mai sigur decat orice pe lumea asta!
Da, sigur! Ce stii in acel moment? C-o iubesti, ca te face sa te simti asa cum nu te-ai mai simtit, parca, niciodata! Te face sa simti ca il adori, astepti cu nerabdare fluturasii din stomac, caci ti-i da, mai ales atunci cand te saruta si te priveste cu privirea aia, aia speciala, care te face sa te simti cea mai frumoasa creatie a lumii… Asta stii, pe asta te poti baza. Dar, acest mic nimic iti conteaza in respectivul moment infim al vietii tale mai mult decat ce va sa fie si de doua ori decat tot ce-a fost…
- Ce-ti doresti de la viata asta?
- Pe tine, numai pe tine, acum, maine, pentru totdeauna… tu!
Asa ne incepem relatiile, mai mult sau mai putin cu minciuna asta, sau una vecina ei, promitem lucruri mari, ne promitem noua ca vom fi mai buni, altfel, ca nu vom repeta greselile trecutului… ca vom iubi atat de frumos incat povestea asta nu se va termina vreodata.
Dar uitam, caci suntem oameni, ca am promis fix acelasi lucru intr-o anumita relatie ce a trecut. La fel am zis, “Intotdeauna cu tine…!“, dar n-a fost asa, ne-am despartit, am uitat – sau nu – am mers mai departe si… acum iubim din nou.
Cand am mintit, atunci sau acum? Ne-am proiectat si atunci umbrele de indragostiti pe peretele de fum al unui viitor care astazi e realitate, si pe peretele ala ne vedeam atunci “Intotdeauna impreuna.”. Numai ca umbrele indragostitilor s-au schimbat, una dintre siluete a disparut, acum e alta, si in acelasi fel de imbratisare ne proiectam din nou intr-un promis “Intotdeauna cu tine!“.
Am mintit atunci? Mintim acum din nou? Am mintit de fiecare data?
Caci, cum facem, vom alege sa fim in continuare, in continuarea acelei minciuni, alaturi de fostul? Riscam asa sa ne erodam prezentul sau lasam minciuna aia deoparte si ii zambim ingaduitori asteia noi?
De ce nu spunem “Azi impreuna!” si facem in asa fel incat sa ne tinem de cuvant cat mai frumos posibil?
**********
I’ve read the next lines on Cabral’s blog (cabral.ro) and I’m thinking and thinking about them since then. Wow, he is so right! Why do I find myself in them?
***
First moment, first conversation when you feel your breath on your chest, first look into the soul, first words... first lies.
Sounds harsh „lies”, I know, but ... let’s try to look at this with honesty. What do you know about her in that moment? How well do you know him? How well do you know yourself in that relationship, so fresh, how well do you know the chemistry of you two, what reason you have to make that promise?
- I love you; I will always be with you!
- Are you sure?
- Surer then anything else!
Yeah, sure! What do you know in that moment? That you love her, that she makes you feel like you, maybe, never felt before! He makes you feel like you adore him, you’re waiting impatiently for the stomach butterflies, because you get those from him, mostly when he kisses you and he looks at you with that look, that special one, which makes you feel the most beautiful creation in the world. This is what you know, you can count on this. But, this tiny nothing counts in this little moment of your life more then what will be and twice more then what was…
- What do you want from this life?
- You, only you, now, tomorrow, always… you!
This is how we start our relations, more or less with this lie, or with one close to it, we promise big things, we promise to ourselves that we are going to be better, different, that we are not going to repeat the mistakes from the past… that we will love so beautiful that the story will never end.
Because we are human we forget that we promised the same thing in a previous relation. We said the same thing “always with you…!”, but it wasn’t like that, we broke up, we forgot – or we didn’t – we moved forward and… now we love again.
When did we lie, then or now? Then we projected our lovers’ shadows on the smoke wall of a future that today became reality, and on that wall we used to see us “always together”. Only that the lovers shadows have changed, one of the silhouettes disappeared, now there is a new one, and in the same embrace we project ourselves again in a new promised “always with you”.
Did we lie then? Are we lying now, again? Did we lie every time?
But what are we going to do; we are going to stay in that lie, by the ex’s side? Do we risk eroding away the present or we are going to leave that lie aside and kindly smile to this new one?
Why aren’t we saying “today together” and trying to keep our word the best way possible?
miercuri, 2 septembrie 2009
Ce imi place mie... / What I like...
Florin Chilian - Zece (Ten)
Refren : Zece intamplari ciudate si-o minune (Ten strange happenings and a miracle)
Te-au adus in casa, zece (Have brought you home, ten)
Zece pictori se tot mira (Ten painters are all surprised)
Cat esti de frumoasa (How beautiful you are)
Zece zile trec absurd de nu stiu (Ten days pass absurd, I don’t know)
Nu stiu cum, nu stiu pe unde, nu stiu (I don't know how, I don't know where, don't know)
Zece vieti de-as sta cu tine (Ten lives if I'd stay with you)
Tot ar fi putine (It would not be enough)
Doua stele, paralele, (Two stars, parallels)
Stele, lacrimi innodate si (Stars, tied tears and)
Lumina de la ele (Their light)
Pentru tine toate (All for you)
Patru printi cu trei castele (Four princes with three castles)
Ape, lanturi fermecate si (Waters, charmed chains and)
Tot cerul peste ele (All the sky over them)
Pentru tine toate (All for you)
Refren x1
Sapte zane, toate bune (Seven fairies, all good)
Licurici, sperante-n noapte si (Fireflies, hopes in the night and)
Piticii din poveste (The story’s gnomes)
Pentru tine toate (All for you)
Noua magi in faptul serii (Nine magus in the evening)
O potcoava sus departe, si (A horse shoe up far away, and)
Comorile din suflet (The treasures of the heart)
Pentru tine toate (All for you)
Refren x1
Refren : Zece intamplari ciudate si-o minune (Ten strange happenings and a miracle)
Te-au adus in casa, zece (Have brought you home, ten)
Zece pictori se tot mira (Ten painters are all surprised)
Cat esti de frumoasa (How beautiful you are)
Zece zile trec absurd de nu stiu (Ten days pass absurd, I don’t know)
Nu stiu cum, nu stiu pe unde, nu stiu (I don't know how, I don't know where, don't know)
Zece vieti de-as sta cu tine (Ten lives if I'd stay with you)
Tot ar fi putine (It would not be enough)
Doua stele, paralele, (Two stars, parallels)
Stele, lacrimi innodate si (Stars, tied tears and)
Lumina de la ele (Their light)
Pentru tine toate (All for you)
Patru printi cu trei castele (Four princes with three castles)
Ape, lanturi fermecate si (Waters, charmed chains and)
Tot cerul peste ele (All the sky over them)
Pentru tine toate (All for you)
Refren x1
Sapte zane, toate bune (Seven fairies, all good)
Licurici, sperante-n noapte si (Fireflies, hopes in the night and)
Piticii din poveste (The story’s gnomes)
Pentru tine toate (All for you)
Noua magi in faptul serii (Nine magus in the evening)
O potcoava sus departe, si (A horse shoe up far away, and)
Comorile din suflet (The treasures of the heart)
Pentru tine toate (All for you)
Refren x1
marți, 30 iunie 2009
Slanic, Prahova
M-am urcat cu ai mei in masina si am plecat spre un loc pe care nu il vazusem niciodata, dar despre care auzisem o multime de lucruri interesante: orasul Slanic, judetul Prahova. Ce poti vedea acolo: salina, muzeul de sare, Lacul sarat Baia Baciului si Lacul Miresei (ceea ce a ramas dupa surparea muntelui de sare ce forma Grota Miresei) si, bineinteles, peisajul.
In mina este o temperatura constanta de 13 grade Celsius, presiunea atmosferica este de 730 mm col. Hg., peretii au o inaltime de 54 metri, pana la suprafata fiind o distanta de 208 metri pe care o parcurgi cu liftul in 90 de secunde. Lucrarile miniere au inceput in anul 1938, dar exploatarea s-a facut intre anii 1943 - 1970. Mina este folosita acum doar in scopuri turistice. Spatiul excavat este impartit in 14 camere si ocupa acum 2,9 milioane metri cubi si se intinde pe o suprafata de 7,8 hectare. Putem vedea acolo sculpturi in sare, o Sala a Genezei, o expozitie de chihlimbar si o zona de joaca cu leagane si teren de fotbal.
Me and my folks got up in the car and went to visit a place that I had never seen, but heard about many interesting things: Slanic town, Prahova County. What you can see there: the salt mine, the salt museum, the Baia Baciului salted Lake and the Bride’s Lake (which remained after the crumbling of the salt mountain that used to form the Bride’s Cave) and, of course, the landscape.
In mina este o temperatura constanta de 13 grade Celsius, presiunea atmosferica este de 730 mm col. Hg., peretii au o inaltime de 54 metri, pana la suprafata fiind o distanta de 208 metri pe care o parcurgi cu liftul in 90 de secunde. Lucrarile miniere au inceput in anul 1938, dar exploatarea s-a facut intre anii 1943 - 1970. Mina este folosita acum doar in scopuri turistice. Spatiul excavat este impartit in 14 camere si ocupa acum 2,9 milioane metri cubi si se intinde pe o suprafata de 7,8 hectare. Putem vedea acolo sculpturi in sare, o Sala a Genezei, o expozitie de chihlimbar si o zona de joaca cu leagane si teren de fotbal.There is a constant temperature of 13 Celsius degrees in the mine and an atmospheric pressure of 730 mm col. Hg. The walls have a height of 54 metres and there is a distance of 208 metres until the surface that can be travelled by elevator in 90 seconds. Mining works began in 1938, but the operation was done between 1943 - 1970. Mine is now used only for touristic purposes. The excavated space is devided in 14 rooms and now holds 2.9 million cubic metres and it streches on an area of 7.8 hectares. We can see there some sculptures in salt, a Genesis Room, an expo of amber and a playground with swings and a soccer field.
Apoi am trecut pe la Baia Baciului ca sa vedem lacul si ce a mai ramas din Grota Miresei.
Then we went to Baia Baciului to see the lake and what's left of The Bride's Cave.
Iata cum arata Grota Miresei inainte de a se surpa peretele de sare.
This is how The Bride's Cave looked before the crumbling of the salt wall.
Si iata cum arata acum.
And this is how it looks now.
luni, 22 iunie 2009
Cine suntem? / Who are we?
Am considerat totdeauna ca oamenii trebuie sa dovedeasca ca sunt oameni, adica sa adopte un comportament adecvat, care sa-i deosebeasca de celelalte vietuitoare. Multi dintre noi, insa, tin mortis sa ne arate, in repetate randuri, ca ei au fost, sunt si vor fi doar animale (sau mai rau - bestii), nu oameni, nu umani.
Ce inseamna sa fii uman? Pentru mine inseamna sa gandesti, apoi sa actionezi in consecinta, inseamna sa respecti libertatea celuilalt, sa arati generozitate, compasiune, emotie fata de cel de langa tine.
Ce inseamna sa fii om? Eu zic ca inseamna sa ai caracter, personalitate, principii sanatoase si morala.
Realizez, insa, ca vorbesc aici despre o specie pe cale de disparitie.
Concluzia nr. 1: "Salvati umanitatea (sau ce a mai ramas din ea)!"
Concluzia nr. 2: "Nu se mai fac oameni cum se faceau odata!"
***
I always considered that people must prove they are human, that they have to adopt an appropriate behavior, to differentiate them from all the other creatures. But many of us keep showing, repeatedly, that they were, are and will always be only animals (or worse - beasts), not people, not human.
What it means to be human? For me it means to think, and then act accordingly, it means you have to respect other's freedom, to show generosity, compassion, emotion for the one next to you.
What it means to be human? I say it means to have character, personality, healthy principles and moral.
I realize, though, that I’m talking here about an endangered species.
Conclusion no. 1: "Save humanity (or what was left of it)!"
Conclusion no. 2: "They no longer make people like they used to!"
Ce inseamna sa fii uman? Pentru mine inseamna sa gandesti, apoi sa actionezi in consecinta, inseamna sa respecti libertatea celuilalt, sa arati generozitate, compasiune, emotie fata de cel de langa tine.
Ce inseamna sa fii om? Eu zic ca inseamna sa ai caracter, personalitate, principii sanatoase si morala.
Realizez, insa, ca vorbesc aici despre o specie pe cale de disparitie.
Concluzia nr. 1: "Salvati umanitatea (sau ce a mai ramas din ea)!"
Concluzia nr. 2: "Nu se mai fac oameni cum se faceau odata!"
***
I always considered that people must prove they are human, that they have to adopt an appropriate behavior, to differentiate them from all the other creatures. But many of us keep showing, repeatedly, that they were, are and will always be only animals (or worse - beasts), not people, not human.
What it means to be human? For me it means to think, and then act accordingly, it means you have to respect other's freedom, to show generosity, compassion, emotion for the one next to you.
What it means to be human? I say it means to have character, personality, healthy principles and moral.
I realize, though, that I’m talking here about an endangered species.
Conclusion no. 1: "Save humanity (or what was left of it)!"
Conclusion no. 2: "They no longer make people like they used to!"
marți, 16 iunie 2009
Desertaciune II / Emptiness II
Am scris versurile urmatoare acum cativa ani. Poate ca atunci eram doar un copil sau poate ca atunci am gandit cu adevarat ca un adult. Acum o recitesc si imi dau seama ca sunt pierduta, ca nu stiu ce vreau de la viata asta, ca sunt dezamagita de mine si de oamenii si lucrurile care ma inconjoara.
***
I wrote the next lyrics several years ago. Maybe I was just a kid then, or maybe then I really thought as an adult. Now I read them again and I realize that I am lost, I don’t know what I want from this life, I've disappointed myself and the people and things that surround me have disappointed me also.
Desertaciune (Emptiness)
Ma intreb adeseori daca... (I often wonder if ... )
Exista Dumnezeu (There is God)
Sau exista iubirea? (Or there is love?)
Exista aceasta lume (Is there this world)
Sau ne inseala privirea? (Or we are seeing wrong?)
Ne ascundem de adevar (We hide from the truth)
Cu ochii plecati. (With eyes looking down.)
Credem in vorbe, (We believe in words,)
Traim impacati. (We live at peace.)
Gandul la noi (Thinking about us)
Acopera gandul (Covers the thought)
Ca multi asupriti (That the oppressed)
Ne cer doar cuvantul. (Are asking only for our word.)
Un bine infim (A small good)
Uitam a-l face (We forget to do)
Dar cerem pamantul (But we want the world)
In comori sa-l prefacem. (To transform it in treasures)
Ne nastem cu drepturi (We are born with rights)
Dar lipsiti de dreptate. (But deprived of justice.)
Invatam sa-nselam, (We learn to cheat,)
Cum sa castigam in toate. (How to win in all.)
In aceeasi iluzie (In the same illusion)
Mii de masti se-ntalnesc. (Thousands of masks meet.)
Se mai naste o viata (Another life is born)
Pe care altii o pedepsesc. (Which others punish.)
La aceleasi concepte (To the same concepts)
Si aceleasi idei – (And the same ideas -)
Aceleasi atitudini (The same attitudes)
Fara sa vrei. (Without you wanting it.)
Vorbe fara esenta, (Words without essence,)
Oameni prea mici, (Too small people,)
Suflete de gheata – (Souls of ice -)
O creatie Kitch. (A Kitch creation.)
Ne rugam la Soare, (We pray to the Sun,)
Ne-nchinam la zei, (We dedicate ourselves to gods,)
Le-aducem ofrande (We bring them offerings)
Apoi ne lepadam de ei. (Then we forsake them.)
Ne juram cainta. (We swear we repent.)
Cersim mila tuturor. (We beg everybody's mercy.)
Ingenunchem in iertare (We knee in forgiveness)
Pentru rani care dor. (For wounds that hurt.)
Mintim, inselam, (We lie, we cheat,)
Omoram din placere (We passionately kill)
Tradam din vointa (We betray of our will)
Dar apoi... tacere. (But then... silence.)
Caci nu exista pedepse (Because there is no punishment)
Pentru cei vinovati (For the guilty ones)
Cand creste durerea (When the pain is intensifying)
A ai nostrilor frati. (Of our brothers.)
Ne pierdem onoarea, (We lose our honor,)
Demnitatea la fel. (Dignity too.)
Ne nastem spre pieire, (We are born for dying,)
Ducem trai fara tel. (We live a life without purpose.)
Ne falim cu creatii, (We take pride in our creations,)
Descoperiri noi, (New discoveries,)
Dar cate din ele (But how many of them)
Nu ne fac rau? (Do not hurt us?)
Caut in mine. Neant. Haos. Gol. (I'm searching inside me. Nothingness. Chaos. Emptyness.)
Unde-i sufletul meu? (Where is my soul?)
Nu mai cred in iubire! (I stopped believing in love!)
Nu am Dumnezeu! (I don't have a God!)
***
I wrote the next lyrics several years ago. Maybe I was just a kid then, or maybe then I really thought as an adult. Now I read them again and I realize that I am lost, I don’t know what I want from this life, I've disappointed myself and the people and things that surround me have disappointed me also.
Desertaciune (Emptiness)
Ma intreb adeseori daca... (I often wonder if ... )
Exista Dumnezeu (There is God)
Sau exista iubirea? (Or there is love?)
Exista aceasta lume (Is there this world)
Sau ne inseala privirea? (Or we are seeing wrong?)
Ne ascundem de adevar (We hide from the truth)
Cu ochii plecati. (With eyes looking down.)
Credem in vorbe, (We believe in words,)
Traim impacati. (We live at peace.)
Gandul la noi (Thinking about us)
Acopera gandul (Covers the thought)
Ca multi asupriti (That the oppressed)
Ne cer doar cuvantul. (Are asking only for our word.)
Un bine infim (A small good)
Uitam a-l face (We forget to do)
Dar cerem pamantul (But we want the world)
In comori sa-l prefacem. (To transform it in treasures)
Ne nastem cu drepturi (We are born with rights)
Dar lipsiti de dreptate. (But deprived of justice.)
Invatam sa-nselam, (We learn to cheat,)
Cum sa castigam in toate. (How to win in all.)
In aceeasi iluzie (In the same illusion)
Mii de masti se-ntalnesc. (Thousands of masks meet.)
Se mai naste o viata (Another life is born)
Pe care altii o pedepsesc. (Which others punish.)
La aceleasi concepte (To the same concepts)
Si aceleasi idei – (And the same ideas -)
Aceleasi atitudini (The same attitudes)
Fara sa vrei. (Without you wanting it.)
Vorbe fara esenta, (Words without essence,)
Oameni prea mici, (Too small people,)
Suflete de gheata – (Souls of ice -)
O creatie Kitch. (A Kitch creation.)
Ne rugam la Soare, (We pray to the Sun,)
Ne-nchinam la zei, (We dedicate ourselves to gods,)
Le-aducem ofrande (We bring them offerings)
Apoi ne lepadam de ei. (Then we forsake them.)
Ne juram cainta. (We swear we repent.)
Cersim mila tuturor. (We beg everybody's mercy.)
Ingenunchem in iertare (We knee in forgiveness)
Pentru rani care dor. (For wounds that hurt.)
Mintim, inselam, (We lie, we cheat,)
Omoram din placere (We passionately kill)
Tradam din vointa (We betray of our will)
Dar apoi... tacere. (But then... silence.)
Caci nu exista pedepse (Because there is no punishment)
Pentru cei vinovati (For the guilty ones)
Cand creste durerea (When the pain is intensifying)
A ai nostrilor frati. (Of our brothers.)
Ne pierdem onoarea, (We lose our honor,)
Demnitatea la fel. (Dignity too.)
Ne nastem spre pieire, (We are born for dying,)
Ducem trai fara tel. (We live a life without purpose.)
Ne falim cu creatii, (We take pride in our creations,)
Descoperiri noi, (New discoveries,)
Dar cate din ele (But how many of them)
Nu ne fac rau? (Do not hurt us?)
Caut in mine. Neant. Haos. Gol. (I'm searching inside me. Nothingness. Chaos. Emptyness.)
Unde-i sufletul meu? (Where is my soul?)
Nu mai cred in iubire! (I stopped believing in love!)
Nu am Dumnezeu! (I don't have a God!)
luni, 15 iunie 2009
Desertaciune I / Emptiness I
This is the world in which we live.
A realistic video, a piece of life; lyrics that came from the soul: VAMA - God does not appear on the news.
God does not appear on the news
God does not kill dolphins
God does not melt glaciers
God hasn’t voteed in the Senate
God has no nuclear dream
God has not fought in Iraq
Too busy destroying the world people are
No one bothers about God here on Earth
Ref: God has left us...
He let us to do whatever we want
They made Jesus a Superstar
They have printed God on the U.S. dollars
Religion is war marketing
People make their cross but with an empty look
Ref: God has left us...
He let us to do whatever we want
Without faith the human ship is lost in space; the storm is approaching,
The world is darkening
Everything is for sale, everything can be bought; money are the way, the truth and the life
Jesus is not coming ....
God is looking once again at the world
There is no one to see that
He is lending us a hand
There is no one there to hear the love whisper
He still says to us?
Ref: God has left us...
He let us to do whatever we want
God has watched...
He doesn’t understand wher he did wrong
God has watched...
He watched...
***
Aceasta este lumea in care traim.
Videoclip realist, rupt din viata; versuri de suflet cu care rezonez: Vama - Dumnezeu nu apare la stiri.
Dumnezeu nu apare la Stiri
Dumnezeu nu omoara Delfini
Dumnezeu n-are Vis Nuclear
Dumnezeu nu topeste Ghetari
Dumnezeu n-a votat in Senat
Dumnezeu n-a luptat in Irak
Prea ocupati cu distrugerea lumii oamenii sunt
Pe Dumnezeu nu-l ia nimeni in seama aici pe Pamant.
Ref:Dumnezeu ne-a lasat...
Ne-a lasat sa ne facem de cap
Pe Iisus l-au facut Superstar
Pe Dumnezeu l-au tiparit pe dolar
Religia e marketing de razboi
Oamenii-si fac cruce dar privesc in gol
Ref:Dumnezeu ne-a lasat...
Ne-a lasat sa ne facem de cap
Fara Credinta corabia Umana rataceste prin spatiu se apropie furtuna,
Se-ntuneca lumea
Totul se vinde se cumpara totul banii sunt calea adevarul si viata Isus nu mai vine....
Dumnezeu se mai uita o data spre lume
Nu e nimeni sa vada ca-ntinde o mana
Nu e nimeni s-auda ca soapta iubirii El inca ne-o spune?
Ref: Dumnezeu ne-a lasat...
Ne-a lasat sa ne facem de cap
Dumnezeu a privit...
Nu-ntelege unde a gresit
Dumnezeu a privit...
A privit...
vineri, 5 iunie 2009
Despre IUBIRE in multe feluri / About LOVE in many ways
Nu stiu cum se face ca toata lumea in jurul meu se casatoreste. Am o gramada de prieteni si cunostinte care fac nunta anul acesta sau la anu. O fi un virus nou pe piata sau a devenit casnicia un trend? Din cate imi amintesc eu, pe la noi rata divorturilor e din ce in ce mai mare, de la an la an. Nu ca as dori eu sa li se intample asa ceva... Oricum, meditez si eu asupra acestui sentiment care ne innebuneste pe toti: IUBIREA. Si am ajuns la cateva concluzii.
- Iubirea nu raneste. Ea nu se exprima prin violenta si nu aduce suferinta. Cand iubesti nu il ranesti pe cel de langa tine in nici un fel, mai ales fizic. Dragostea este o relatie de la egal la egal, nu de genul stapan – sclav. In dragoste suntem parteneri, colaboratori. Dar cate neveste nu sunt batute sau amenintate zilnic in tara nostra...
- Iubirea nu omoara. Daca te gandesti cum sa-l faci pe cel de langa tine sa dispara inseamna ori ca esti nebun, ori ca ai ajuns la capatul puterilor. Oricum e clar ca aici nu mai e vorba de iubire. Solutia cea mai buna e divortul, despartirea definitiva. Era la stiri, intr-o zi un caz: el i-a pus sotiei mercur in tigara. Oamenii din ziua de azi ma ingrozesc.
- Iubirea este respect. Daca nu il respecti pe cel de langa tine, daca nu il admiri pentru omul care este atunci nu ai ce cauta langa el. In trecut, cand tinerii erau casatoriti fara a se cunoaste (si pe la noi se practica obiceiul acesta), respectul era baza casniciei, iubirea venea mai tarziu, daca venea, iar casnicia dura o viata intreaga.
- Iubirea este sacrificiu. Cand iubesti esti dispus sa lasi totul pentru a fi alaturi de celalalt, sa-ti parasesti job-ul, familia, casa, tara, religia, sa te schimbi cu totul, sa devii un om nou, mai bun, mai frumos.
- Iubirea nu inseamna mila. Daca te intrebi „oare ce va face fara mine, cum se va descurca, cine ii va gati, cine il/o va ingriji” nu inseamna ca il iubesti pe celalalt, ci ca esti constient ca partenerul e dependent de tine. Dar asta nu e iubire. Iubire este atunci cand stai langa celalalt indiferent de dizabilitatile sale, pentru ca iti simti sufletul plin doar alaturi de el. Iubire este atunci cand, desi o viata sexuala normala e imposibila, gasesti metode prin care cuplul sa se reinventeze, atat afectiv cat si sexual.
- Iubirea nu pune bariere. Daca te iubeste nu iti va cere niciodata sa faci ceva ce nu iti place, sa te desparti de cei pe care ii iubesti, sa-ti schimbi stilul de viata. Vei face toate astea doar daca vrei, daca consideri ca e necesar. Iubirea nu inseamna „nu ai voie”, ci „totul este permis”.
- Iubirea nu minte, nu inseala. In dragoste e loc doar pentru sinceritate, adevar, fidelitate. Oricine se abate de la acestea trei inseamna ca nu are principii si nu merita.
- Iubirea este incredere. Trebuie sa-l crezi pe celalalt inca dinainte de a-l cunoaste cu adevarat, chiar daca stii ca e posibil sa te inseli, sa suferi. Nu e bine sa lasam loc interpretarii, suspiciunii. Daca suntem sinceri vom castiga increderea partenerului si, in acest fel, inlaturam dusmanul cel mai important: gelozia.
- Iubirea inseamna rabdare. Oamenii nu sunt perfecti, dar sunt dispusi sa se schimbe din dragoste. Nu trebuie decat sa avem rabdare, sa le dam timp ca ei sa-si inlature defectele si sa-si multiplice calitatile. Cand iubesti il astepti pe celalalt sa vina la tine, sa vina atunci cand e sigur ca aceasta este alegerea corecta, cand este el pregatit.
....
I don’t know how come everyone around me is getting married. I have a lot of friends and acquaintances who are having their wedding this year or next year. Is it a virus or getting married became a trend? From what I remember, here the rate of divorces is increasing from year to year. Not that I would want something like this to happen to them... Anyway, I reflect on this feeling that gets us all crazy: LOVE. And I came to several conclusions.
- Love does not hurt. It is not expressed trough violence and it does not bring suffering. When you love you do not hurt the one near you in any way, especially physically. Love is a relationship between equals, not like master - slave. In love we are partners, collaborators. But how many wives are not threatened or beaten daily in our country...
- Love does not kill. If you think about how to make the one next to you disappear means you're either crazy or you got tired out. However, is clear that here is not about love. The best solution is divorce, final break-up. It was on the news this event: he put mercury in his wife’s cigarette. People today terrify me.
- Love is respect. If you disrespect the guy next to you, if you do not admire him then what are you still doing with him. In the past, when young people were getting married without meeting before (we used to practice this here too), respect was the bases of the marriage, love came later, if it came, and the marriage lasted a lifetime.
- Love is sacrifice. When you love you are willing to leave everything to be next to the one you desire, you leave your job, family, home, country, religion, to change completely, to become a new person, better, more beautiful.
- Love is not mercy. If you ask "what will he do without me, how will he manage, who will do the cooking, who will take care of him" does not mean that you love the other, it only means you're aware that your partner is dependent on you. But that's not love. Love is when you sit next to him regardless of his disability, because you feel fulfilled only beside him. Love is when, although a normal sexual life is impossible, the couple finds ways to reinvent both emotional and sexual.
- Love does not put barriers. If he loves you he will never ask you to do something that you don’t want to like to leave the people you love, to change your lifestyle. You will do this only if you want to, if you consider it necessary. Love does not mean "you cannot” but "everything is allowed".
- Love is not lying or cheating. In love there is place only for sincerity, truth, fidelity. Whoever deviates from this three means that they don’t have principles and are not worth it.
- Love is trust. You got to believe your partner even before knowing the real him, even if you know it's possible to be wrong, to suffer. It’s not good to leave space for interpretation, suspicion. If we are honest we will win the trust of our partners and, thus, remove the most important enemy: jealousy.
- Love is patient. People are not perfect, but are willing to change for love. We should just have patience, to give them time to eliminate their defects and multiply their qualities. When you love you will wait for the other one to come to you, to come when he is sure that he made the right choice, when he is ready.
- Iubirea nu raneste. Ea nu se exprima prin violenta si nu aduce suferinta. Cand iubesti nu il ranesti pe cel de langa tine in nici un fel, mai ales fizic. Dragostea este o relatie de la egal la egal, nu de genul stapan – sclav. In dragoste suntem parteneri, colaboratori. Dar cate neveste nu sunt batute sau amenintate zilnic in tara nostra...
- Iubirea nu omoara. Daca te gandesti cum sa-l faci pe cel de langa tine sa dispara inseamna ori ca esti nebun, ori ca ai ajuns la capatul puterilor. Oricum e clar ca aici nu mai e vorba de iubire. Solutia cea mai buna e divortul, despartirea definitiva. Era la stiri, intr-o zi un caz: el i-a pus sotiei mercur in tigara. Oamenii din ziua de azi ma ingrozesc.
- Iubirea este respect. Daca nu il respecti pe cel de langa tine, daca nu il admiri pentru omul care este atunci nu ai ce cauta langa el. In trecut, cand tinerii erau casatoriti fara a se cunoaste (si pe la noi se practica obiceiul acesta), respectul era baza casniciei, iubirea venea mai tarziu, daca venea, iar casnicia dura o viata intreaga.
- Iubirea este sacrificiu. Cand iubesti esti dispus sa lasi totul pentru a fi alaturi de celalalt, sa-ti parasesti job-ul, familia, casa, tara, religia, sa te schimbi cu totul, sa devii un om nou, mai bun, mai frumos.
- Iubirea nu inseamna mila. Daca te intrebi „oare ce va face fara mine, cum se va descurca, cine ii va gati, cine il/o va ingriji” nu inseamna ca il iubesti pe celalalt, ci ca esti constient ca partenerul e dependent de tine. Dar asta nu e iubire. Iubire este atunci cand stai langa celalalt indiferent de dizabilitatile sale, pentru ca iti simti sufletul plin doar alaturi de el. Iubire este atunci cand, desi o viata sexuala normala e imposibila, gasesti metode prin care cuplul sa se reinventeze, atat afectiv cat si sexual.
- Iubirea nu pune bariere. Daca te iubeste nu iti va cere niciodata sa faci ceva ce nu iti place, sa te desparti de cei pe care ii iubesti, sa-ti schimbi stilul de viata. Vei face toate astea doar daca vrei, daca consideri ca e necesar. Iubirea nu inseamna „nu ai voie”, ci „totul este permis”.
- Iubirea nu minte, nu inseala. In dragoste e loc doar pentru sinceritate, adevar, fidelitate. Oricine se abate de la acestea trei inseamna ca nu are principii si nu merita.
- Iubirea este incredere. Trebuie sa-l crezi pe celalalt inca dinainte de a-l cunoaste cu adevarat, chiar daca stii ca e posibil sa te inseli, sa suferi. Nu e bine sa lasam loc interpretarii, suspiciunii. Daca suntem sinceri vom castiga increderea partenerului si, in acest fel, inlaturam dusmanul cel mai important: gelozia.
- Iubirea inseamna rabdare. Oamenii nu sunt perfecti, dar sunt dispusi sa se schimbe din dragoste. Nu trebuie decat sa avem rabdare, sa le dam timp ca ei sa-si inlature defectele si sa-si multiplice calitatile. Cand iubesti il astepti pe celalalt sa vina la tine, sa vina atunci cand e sigur ca aceasta este alegerea corecta, cand este el pregatit.
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I don’t know how come everyone around me is getting married. I have a lot of friends and acquaintances who are having their wedding this year or next year. Is it a virus or getting married became a trend? From what I remember, here the rate of divorces is increasing from year to year. Not that I would want something like this to happen to them... Anyway, I reflect on this feeling that gets us all crazy: LOVE. And I came to several conclusions.
- Love does not hurt. It is not expressed trough violence and it does not bring suffering. When you love you do not hurt the one near you in any way, especially physically. Love is a relationship between equals, not like master - slave. In love we are partners, collaborators. But how many wives are not threatened or beaten daily in our country...
- Love does not kill. If you think about how to make the one next to you disappear means you're either crazy or you got tired out. However, is clear that here is not about love. The best solution is divorce, final break-up. It was on the news this event: he put mercury in his wife’s cigarette. People today terrify me.
- Love is respect. If you disrespect the guy next to you, if you do not admire him then what are you still doing with him. In the past, when young people were getting married without meeting before (we used to practice this here too), respect was the bases of the marriage, love came later, if it came, and the marriage lasted a lifetime.
- Love is sacrifice. When you love you are willing to leave everything to be next to the one you desire, you leave your job, family, home, country, religion, to change completely, to become a new person, better, more beautiful.
- Love is not mercy. If you ask "what will he do without me, how will he manage, who will do the cooking, who will take care of him" does not mean that you love the other, it only means you're aware that your partner is dependent on you. But that's not love. Love is when you sit next to him regardless of his disability, because you feel fulfilled only beside him. Love is when, although a normal sexual life is impossible, the couple finds ways to reinvent both emotional and sexual.
- Love does not put barriers. If he loves you he will never ask you to do something that you don’t want to like to leave the people you love, to change your lifestyle. You will do this only if you want to, if you consider it necessary. Love does not mean "you cannot” but "everything is allowed".
- Love is not lying or cheating. In love there is place only for sincerity, truth, fidelity. Whoever deviates from this three means that they don’t have principles and are not worth it.
- Love is trust. You got to believe your partner even before knowing the real him, even if you know it's possible to be wrong, to suffer. It’s not good to leave space for interpretation, suspicion. If we are honest we will win the trust of our partners and, thus, remove the most important enemy: jealousy.
- Love is patient. People are not perfect, but are willing to change for love. We should just have patience, to give them time to eliminate their defects and multiply their qualities. When you love you will wait for the other one to come to you, to come when he is sure that he made the right choice, when he is ready.
marți, 2 iunie 2009
La Circul Medrano / At the Medrano Circus
Mai merita sa mergi la Circ in ziua de azi? Eu zic ca da, chiar daca avem parte de circ oriunde: la magazin, in parc, in autobuz, la stiri. Cel putin la Circul asta a meritat. Pretul a fost bun, spectacolul de calitate, numerele prezentate erau diferite de tot ceea ce am vazut pana acum, animalele sunt foarte bine ingrijite, hranite, iar in aer nu plutea nici un miros care sa-mi raneasca simtul olfactiv. Si cu acesta ocazie am vizitat si in spatele scenei, adica custile animalelor. Nici acum nu-mi vine sa cred ca am vazut elefanti. Erau atat de mari, imensi si foarte frumosi, naturali si sociabili, nu se temeau de public sau zgomot. Am mai vazut si girafe, tigri, un rinocer, lame, struti si cai, o experienta deosebita. Parinti, duce-ti-va copii la circ!
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Is it worth today to go see the Circus? I say yes, even if we are surrounded by circus wherever we are: at the shop, in the park, in the bus, on the news. At least at this Circus was worth it. The price was good, a quality show, the numbers presented were different from what I saw before, the animals are well cared, fed and there is no bad smell floating in the air that would hurt my olfactory sense. And this time I visited behind the scenes too, meaning the animals cages. Even now I can’t believe that I saw elephants. They were so big, huge and very beautiful, natural and social, not fearing the public or the noise. I saw giraffes, tigers, a rhinoceros, llamas, ostriches and horses, a great experience. Parents, get your children to see the circus!
marți, 12 mai 2009
Vulcanii Noroiosi / The Muddy Volcanoes
De cand ma stiu mi-am dorit sa vad acest loc si imi imaginam un munte imens de unde curge noroiul in valuri. Nu a fost sa fie asa. Din Vulcanii Noroiosi nu au mai ramas decat cateva "ochiuri" prin care muntii "respira" la intervale de cateva secunde. Dar nu-i nimic, eu m-am bucurat oricum de peisaj si de faptul ca acest loc este unic in Romania, dar si in Europa.
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I've wanted all my life to see this place and I was imagining a huge mountain where mud flows wave after wave. It was nothing like that. There's almost nothing left of The Muddy Volcanoes, just some holes trough where the mountains "breaths" at intervals of several seconds. But its fine, I enjoyed the view and knowing that this place is unique in Romania, and in Europe too.
Vederi din rai / Postcards from heaven
Am gasit un loc deosebit, care m-a lasat cu gura deschisa: Campina, La fantana cu ciresi. Peisajul e cu totul special, mai ales acum ca a venit vara iar natura s-a "inverzit" de tot. Cand sunt trista ma gandesc la acest loc si parca imi mai revine cheful de viata. Ce mici suntem noi si ce mare e lumea asta!
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I found this special place that left me with my mouth open: Campina, At the spring with cherry trees. The scenery is overwhelming, especially now because summer is here and nature got so green. When I am sad I think of this place and I feel a burst of life coming back to me. How little we are and how big this world really is!
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I found this special place that left me with my mouth open: Campina, At the spring with cherry trees. The scenery is overwhelming, especially now because summer is here and nature got so green. When I am sad I think of this place and I feel a burst of life coming back to me. How little we are and how big this world really is!
joi, 7 mai 2009
Versuri / Lyrics
O any thing, of nothing first create!
O heavy lightness! serious vanity!
Mis-shapen chaos of well-seeming forms!
Feather of lead, bright smoke, cold fire,
sick health!
Still-waking sleep, that is not what it is!
This love feel I, that feel no love in this.
Dost thou not laugh?
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Dintr-o nimica toata la inceput!
Desertaciune grea, voioasa jale!
Haos diform de forme ideale!
Avant de plumb! Lumina, fum,
foc, gheata!
Bolnav, dar teafar!
Somn de-a pururi treaz!
Esti si nu esti: acesta e amorul!
Pe care eu l-urasc,
Desi-i duc dorul!
Romeo, SCENE I, Romeo & Juliet by William Shakespeare
Suna mai bine in romana decat in engleza.
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Sounds better in romanian than in english.
O heavy lightness! serious vanity!
Mis-shapen chaos of well-seeming forms!
Feather of lead, bright smoke, cold fire,
sick health!
Still-waking sleep, that is not what it is!
This love feel I, that feel no love in this.
Dost thou not laugh?
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Dintr-o nimica toata la inceput!
Desertaciune grea, voioasa jale!
Haos diform de forme ideale!
Avant de plumb! Lumina, fum,
foc, gheata!
Bolnav, dar teafar!
Somn de-a pururi treaz!
Esti si nu esti: acesta e amorul!
Pe care eu l-urasc,
Desi-i duc dorul!
Romeo, SCENE I, Romeo & Juliet by William Shakespeare
Suna mai bine in romana decat in engleza.
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Sounds better in romanian than in english.
Arta fotografica / Photographic art
YAN McLINE - Cele mai frumoase nuduri pe care le-am vazut.
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Best nude pics I ever saw.
marți, 5 mai 2009
Barajul Paltinu / Paltinu Dam
Ne tot batea gandul, pe mine si niste prieteni, sa mai iesim si noi la o plimbare prin judet, asa ca ne-am gandit sa dam o fuga pana la Paltinu sa vedem si noi cum e pe acolo. Si nu, nu am fost la un gratar, asa cum ii e obiceiul romanului de rand, ci doar in excursie.E frumoasa zona, pacat insa ca nu ai voie sa te si plimbi pe baraj. Ce sa vezi: portile inchise cu un mare semn "Interzisa trecerea" pe ele! Eh! Mi-am pus pofta in cui si m-am multumit cu peisajul vazut "de pe margine". Insa si mai interesant a fost sa vad lacul de acumulare. Dar nu intinderea aceea nesfarsita de apa mi-a starnit mie dorinta de a va povesti aici despre barajul Paltinu, ci intinderea aceea nesfarsita de gunoaie care pluteau la malul lacului. Si, pentru cei care nu stiu, va informez ca din acest lac se alimenteaza orasul Ploiesti cu apa potabila. Acum se intelege de ce apa noastra de la robinet miroase si are un gust iritant de clor.
Concluzii: 1. e absolut necesar sa trecem la apa imbuteliata 2. daca am arunca cat mai putine gunoaie in natura ar fi ideal, doar pentru asta s-au inventat cosurile de gunoi, nu? 3. desi e bine cunoscut faptul ca sunt gunoaie peste tot, nu e nimeni platit sa le si stranga 4. pana la urma romanul face tot ce stie el: gratar in locuri neamenajate si gunoiul aruncat in padure (ca doar serveste ca ingrasamant natural, nu?)
Pacat de tara asta frumoasa!
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Some friends and I were thinking to get out on a walk in our county, so we thought we should go to Paltinu to see how are things there. And no, we were not out on a barbecue, the new national custom of Romanians, only on a trip.
It’s a beautiful area, pity that one can’t walk on the damn. What was there to see: closed gates with a big sign “no trespassing” on. So I forgot about it and I contented in watching the scenery “from aside”. But even more interesting was to see the barrier lake. However, not the endless water spread roused in me the wish to tell you about the Paltinu dam, but the endless garbage spread floating at the shore. And, for those that don’t know, I’m telling you that this lake is supplying Ploiesti city with drinkable water. Now we can understand why our running water smells and tastes irritating of chlorine.
Conclusions: 1. it’s imperative that we start drinking only bottled water 2. ideal would be for us to drop less garbage in the nature, they invented the garbage cans for this, no? 3. although it is well known that there is garbage everywhere around, there is no one paid to gather it 4. in the end the Romanian does what he knows best: barbecue in unfit places and throwing garbage in the woods (because it’s natural fertilizer, isn’t it?).
Pity of this beautiful country!
luni, 4 mai 2009
Excursie la Brebu, Judetul Prahova / Trip to Brebu, Prahova County
Nu prea am avut ocazia, pana acum, sa ma plimb prin judetul meu si am descoperit de curand cateva locuri care merita.Am fost in comuna Brebu: undeva ascunsa printre dealuri, zona rurala unde casele sunt in stil romanesc vechi, unde incep acum sa rasara vilutele transformate peste noapte in pensiuni turistice, unde soselele mai sunt, inca, pavate cu piatra, unde lumea se strange Duminica dimineata la biserica, asa cum rar mi-a fost dat sa mai vad si prin urbea noastra.
Ce am vazut acolo? Biserica Domneasca Matei Basarab si Casa Domneasca Matei Basarab, ingradite de un vechi zid, acum aflat in paragina. In Casa Domneasca functioneaza acum un muzeu, parte a Muzeului de Istorie Ploiesti, cat de cat ingrijit. Cand am fost eu acolo se lucra la un sistem pentru a mentine temperatura si umiditatea constante in muzeu. Sa nu va asteptati la cine-stie-ce pentru ca veti fi dezamagiti. Investitii in restaurare nu s-a facut pe aici, asa ca totul pare in ruina, zidurile sunt sparte, faramate pana la caramida. Dar locul asta are frumusetea lui, e drept: una bruta, necizelata. In mijlocul curtii se afla biserica. Exista o portita care duce din curte in spatele casei si poti ajunge la lac. Nu e o atractie deosebita, dar merita.Oricum, la ce sa ma fi asteptat de la acest punct turistic? Doar suntem in Romania, am invatat sa nu cer foarte multe de la aceasta tara si nici de la locuitorii ei.
Apropo, comuna Brebu are site, pentru cei interesati: http://www.brebuprahova.ro/brebu.htm
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I didn’t have the opportunity, until now, to travel in my county and I just discovered some places that are worth seeing.I went to Brebu village: somewhere hidden between the hills, a rural area where the hoses are made in old Romanian rustic style, where mansions are starting to appear now, transformed over night in boarding houses, where the streets are still stone paved, where people get together Sunday morning at church, like I rarely see in our city.
What I saw there? The Matei Basarab Church and House, surrounded by an old wall, now neglected. There’s a museum in the House, part of the Ploiesti History Museum, somehow attended. When I was there they where working on a system to maintain constant temperature and humidity in the museum. Do not expect great things here because you will be disappointed. Everything looks like in ruin because they never invested here in restoration; the walls are broken, crumbled to the brick. But this place has his beauty, true: a savage, ragged one. In the middle of the yard stands the Church. There is a gate that leads outside the walls, behind the House and one can get at the lake. It’s not a very pretty place, but it’s worth a visit.
Anyway, what should have I expected from this touristic attraction? We are in Romania after all, and I’ve learned not to demand so many things from this country and his inhabitants.
By the way, Brebu village has a site, for those who are interested: http://www.brebuprahova.ro/brebu.htm
sâmbătă, 4 aprilie 2009
Cum sunt unii.../How people are...
Acum ceva timp am purtat o discutie cu o persoana care m-a impresionat. Nu conteaza daca este vorba despre o femeie sau un barbat, chiar nu are importanta. Ceea ce conteaza este subiectul discutiei: sa-ti pastrezi virginitatea pana la casatorie. Este adevarat ca aceasta persoana avea si motive religioase sa aiba aceasta opinie, numai ca modul in care vorbea despre cum ar trebui sa te pastrezi pana la nunta, sa fii pur in ochii celuilalt, cu care iti vei petrece tot restul vietii si caruia trebuie sa-i daruiesti totul m-a impresionat puternic. Si am gandit in sinea mea atunci: ce om deosebit, mai rar intalnesti astfel de persone.
Apoi mi-a fost dat sa descoper si altceva: nu totul era atat de frumos si romantic dupa cum parea. Voi cum ati fi reactionat daca aceasta persoana v-ar fi intrebat apoi, intr-o alta conversatie: “iti place hardcore-ul? Mie da.” Ma intreb ce reactie va avea „jumatatea” acestei persoane, care va fi cu siguranta cucerita de viziunea aceasta romantica asupra iubirii, cand va afla ce se afla in spatele ei. Pana la nunta va fi totul frumos, roz, fluturasi in aer zburand, iar dupa... dezastru. Pentru ca pot pune pariu ca persoana despre care va vorbesc acum nu-si va arata adevarata fata decat dupa casatorie.
Ce ar spune freud acum: „v-am zis eu!” .
In ochii mei cele doua viziuni nu se potrivesc, dar oamenii sunt complecsi, poate ca pana la urma acesta persoana va gasi pe cineva potrivit.
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Some days ago I had a talk with someone that impressed me. It doesn’t matter if it was a woman or a man, really it doesn’t. What it matters was the subject of our conversation: if one should keep the virginity until marriage. It’s true that this person had religious motifs also to think like this, but the way this person spoke about keeping yourself until that night, being pure in the other ones eyes, that you will spend the rest of your life with and to whom you have to give everything really impressed me. And I thought to myself: what a wonderful human being, we rarely meat people that are like this.
But then I discovered something else: not everything was as beautiful and romantic as I thought. How would you have reacted if this person would have asked you after, in another conversation: “do you like hardcore? Because I do”. I wonder how the “soul mate” of this person, which will be surely conquered by this romantic view on love, will react when finding out what’s behind it. Until the wedding it will all be beautiful and pink, butterflies flying in the air, and after… disaster. Because I’m willing to bet that this person I’m talking to you about won’t show the real face until after marriage.
What would Freud say now: “I told you so!”.
In my eyes this two views do not fit, but people are complex human beings, maybe this person will find someone after all.
Apoi mi-a fost dat sa descoper si altceva: nu totul era atat de frumos si romantic dupa cum parea. Voi cum ati fi reactionat daca aceasta persoana v-ar fi intrebat apoi, intr-o alta conversatie: “iti place hardcore-ul? Mie da.” Ma intreb ce reactie va avea „jumatatea” acestei persoane, care va fi cu siguranta cucerita de viziunea aceasta romantica asupra iubirii, cand va afla ce se afla in spatele ei. Pana la nunta va fi totul frumos, roz, fluturasi in aer zburand, iar dupa... dezastru. Pentru ca pot pune pariu ca persoana despre care va vorbesc acum nu-si va arata adevarata fata decat dupa casatorie.
Ce ar spune freud acum: „v-am zis eu!” .
In ochii mei cele doua viziuni nu se potrivesc, dar oamenii sunt complecsi, poate ca pana la urma acesta persoana va gasi pe cineva potrivit.
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Some days ago I had a talk with someone that impressed me. It doesn’t matter if it was a woman or a man, really it doesn’t. What it matters was the subject of our conversation: if one should keep the virginity until marriage. It’s true that this person had religious motifs also to think like this, but the way this person spoke about keeping yourself until that night, being pure in the other ones eyes, that you will spend the rest of your life with and to whom you have to give everything really impressed me. And I thought to myself: what a wonderful human being, we rarely meat people that are like this.
But then I discovered something else: not everything was as beautiful and romantic as I thought. How would you have reacted if this person would have asked you after, in another conversation: “do you like hardcore? Because I do”. I wonder how the “soul mate” of this person, which will be surely conquered by this romantic view on love, will react when finding out what’s behind it. Until the wedding it will all be beautiful and pink, butterflies flying in the air, and after… disaster. Because I’m willing to bet that this person I’m talking to you about won’t show the real face until after marriage.
What would Freud say now: “I told you so!”.
In my eyes this two views do not fit, but people are complex human beings, maybe this person will find someone after all.
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