Selfadvices / Autosfaturi

I was looking tonight over some of my writings and I found something that I like very much:

„Time heals wounds, but the scars remain and sometimes, when we face „bad weather”, they hurt. Time has his limits.”

There are many poems written by me, even prose, which make me feel in a certain way when I read them and not because they are mine or they are very good, but because they remind me of myself in that period. It’s like I can see myself then, when I had those feelings that made me lay everything on paper. I feel a stranger to some of them, probably because I’ve changed, but I can find myself in others. I don’t consider myself as being a poet or a writer. When I write I do it only because I feel like it, to free myself from my many thoughts. And sometimes I surprise myself because I am giving to me answers, encouragement and advices trough my writings.
But I better leave all the talking to my lines:

“Nothing it’s easy in this life. A lot of effort, a lot of waiting, pain and suffering are needed. We have to give everything, everything we got and everything we are for one cause, for what we want the most, for a dream without which we could not go forward.”

“I am a fighter. I’m not afraid of anything…”

“I’ve chosen. I will remain innocent. I will be a child hidden in a mask. And you will be deceived, because I will see the CHILD and you will see the MASK.”

“My instincts are making me see the truth. It’s like seeing another dimension of the world in front of my eyes and every person it’s wearing his truth print.”

“My body is an obstacle in the path of knowledge.”

“The silence of the night it’s letting reason to search very deep…”

There would be more but I prefer to leave them on some other time. I will post in the future my favorite poem called “Indrumari” (Guidance) that has many advices. And I saved the best for last:

“Get up and move on…
Broken wings can be fixed with glue.
Broken hearts can be stitched back into one piece.”


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Ma uitam in seara asta peste cateva din scrierile mele si am gasit ceva ce imi place foarte mult:

„Timpul vindeca ranile, dar cicatricile raman si uneori, cand mai trecem prin perioade cu “vreme rea”, ele ne dor. Are si timpul limitele lui.”

Sunt o multime de poezii scrise de mine, chiar si proza, care ma fac sa ma simt intr-un fel anume atunci cand le citesc si nu pentru ca sunt ale mele, nici pentru ca ar fi ele foarte reusite ci pentru ca imi amintesc de mine in perioada aceea. E ca si cum as putea sa ma vad pe mine atunci cand am trait sentimentele acelea care m-au facut pana la urma sa astern totul pe hartie. Ma simt oarecum straina de unele din ele, probabil pentru ca m-am schimbat, dar in altele ma regasesc. Nu ma consider o poeta sau o scriitoare. Cand scriu o fac numai pentru ca asa simt, ca sa ma eliberez de prea multe ganduri. Si uneori ma uimesc pe mine insami deoarece imi ofer prin scrierile mele raspunsuri, incurajari, sfaturi.
Dar mai bine las randurile sa vorbeasca pentru mine:

"Nimic nu e usor in viata asta. E nevoie de mult efort, de o lunga asteptare, de durere, de suferinta. E nevoie sa dam totul, tot ce avem si ce suntem pentru o cauza, pentru ceea ce ne dorim cel mai mult, pentru un vis fara de care nu am putea sa mergem inainte."

"Sunt o luptatoare, nu ma tem de nimic..."

"Eu am ales. Am sa raman inocenta. O sa fiu un copil ascuns intr-o masca. Si veti fi inselati, deoarece eu o sa vad COPILUL, iar voi veti vedea MASCA."

"Instinctul ma face sa vad adevarul. E ca si cum as vedea o alta dimensiune a lumii pe care o am in fata si fiecare persoana poarta amprenta adevarului sau."

"Trupul meu este o piedica in calea cunoasterii."

"Tacerea noptii lasa ratiunea sa caute foarte adanc..."

Si ar mai fi si altele, dar prefer sa le las pe alta data. Intr-un post viitor voi pune poezia mea preferata „Indrumari”, care contine si mai multe sfaturi. Iar pentru sfarsit am pastrat altceva ce imi place foarte mult:

"Ridica-te si mergi mai departe...
Aripile frante pot fi fixate la loc cu lipici.
Inimile frante pot fi cusute inapoi intr-o bucata."

John Legend - Save Room

Say that you'll stay a little
dont say bye-bye tonight
say you'll be mine
just a little bit of love
is worth a moment of your time.

Knockin' on your door just a little
it's so cold outside tonight
let's get a fire burning oh I know I
'll keep it burning bright
if your stay, wont you save, save

[Chorus]Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love
Save a little, save a little for me
Won't you save a little
Save a little for me

This just might hurt a little
love hurts sometimes when you do it right
dont be afraid of a little bit of pain
pleasure is on the other side.
Let down your guard just a little
i'll keep you safe in these arms of mine
hold on to me pretty baby
you will see I can be all you need if you stay
won't you save, save

[Chorus] Oh c'mon, make time to live a little
don't let this moment slip by tonight
you'll never know what you're missing
'till you try, i'll keep you satisfied if you stay
won't you save, save [Chorus]



This song says it all, no need for me to say anything else.

From this moment on - Shania Twain & Brian White

(I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better for worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on
From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on
I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on
You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on.

Isn't this the most beautiful love declaration ever?

Frumoasa si Bestia / Beauty and the Beast

Toata lumea il stie pe Walt Disney, nu? Si toti cunoastem povestea asta cu Belle si Bestia.
Ea - frumoasa, visatoare, culta, gingasa, echilibrata, saraca. El - urat, rece, puternic, temperamental, arogant, bogat. Doua lumi total diferite, dar care se atrag. Oare noi nu suntem la fel? Noi, in relatiile noastre nu ne purtam la fel ca ei, Belle si Bestia?
In oricare relatie unul din parteneri este mai puternic decat celalalt, mai fragil, mai supus sau mai calm. Ne asumam un rol de la inceput sau n-il descoperim pe parcurs, cand incepem sa ne cunoastem cu adevarat, atat intre noi cat si pe noi insine. Cine spune ca stie totul despre el insusi nu stie de fapt nimic, cine spune ca el nu se va schimba niciodata este cel mai mare mincinos. O relatie te schimba, in bine sau in rau, te transforma, te provoaca, te domina. E alegerea ta cine vei fi dupa o zi, dupa o luna, dupa un an... mai puternic sau mai slab, sclav sau stapan sau undeva la mijloc, pastrand echilibrul.
Asa ca intreaba-te cine ai fost, cine esti si cine vei deveni. Iti place persoana aceea din viitorul tau? Atunci mergi mai departe in relatia asta. Daca nu iti place atunci schimba-te, spunei celuilalt adio si cauta ceva mai bun pentru tine. Stiu oameni care au avut curaj sa faca pasul asta si acum sunt in sfarsit fericiti. Intotdeauna se poate si mai bine.
Dar atunci cand iubesti prea mult si crezi in dragostea voastra e greu sa renunti la ce ai, chiar daca uneori nu ai nimic decat manunchiul asta de sentimente: iubire amestecata cu ura, speranta cu neincredere, implinire cu suferinta. Si acesta este genul de relatie in care cei doi au foarte clar definite rolurile: unul va fi Frumoasa in timp ce celalalt va fi Bestia. Unul isi va dori sa fie iubit iar celalalt isi va dori sa daruiasca iubire, unul va domina iar celalalt se va lasa ingenuncheat, unul va fi crud iar celalalt milostiv. Dar la final exista echilibru: amandoi castiga pentru ca relatia asta ii transforma. Cel puternic invata sa se lase stapanit, cucerit, in timp ce acela fragil invata gustul puterii si intelege ca oamenii, prin natura lor, pot fi atat buni, cat si rai, iar acea malitiozitate, de cele mai multe ori nu e decat o masca care ascunde un suflet sensibil, foarte usor de ranit.

Dar poate ca Frumoasa intelesese rolul ei din prima clipa cand a privit Bestia in ochi.

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Everybody knows Walt Disney, isn’t so? And we all know this story about Belle and the Beast.
She – beautiful, dreamy, literate, delicate, balanced, poor. He – ugly, cold, strong, short tempered, prideful, rich. Two totally different worlds, but who are attracted to each other. Aren’t we the same? In our relationships don’t we act just like them, like Belle and the Beast?
One of the partners is always stronger, more fragile, and more submissive or more calm then the other, in every relation. We are assuming a role-play from the beginning or we are discovering it on the way, when we begin to really know each other or thyself. Who says that he knows everything there is about him actually doesn’t know a thing, who says he will never change is the greatest liar. A relationship changes who you are for the better or for the worst, it transforms you, provokes you, and dominates you. It’s your choice who you’re going to be after one day, one month or one year… stronger or weaker, slave or master or somewhere in between, keeping the balance.
So ask yourself who were you, who are you and who you will became. Do you like that person from your future? Then go on in this relationship. If you don’t like it then change yourself, say goodbye to the other one and search better for you. I know people who had enough courage to make this step and now they are finally happy. You can always do better.
But when you love too much and you believe in your love it’s hard to give up on what you have, even if sometimes all you have is a bunch of these feelings: love mixed with hate, hope with disbelief, accomplished with hurt. And this is that kind of relation where both are playing these roles: one will be Beauty while the other one will be Beast. One will wish to be loved while the other will want to give love, one will dominate and the other one will let himself knelt, one will be cruel and the other one merciful. But in the end there is balance: they both win because this relationship transforms them. The strong one learns to let himself mastered, conquered, while the fragile one learns the taste of power and understands that people, by their nature, can be good and bad, and this malice, most of the times is only a mask that hides a very sensible, easy to hurt soul.

But maybe Beauty understood her role from the first moment she looked into the Beasts eyes.

Ce imi place mie... / What I like...

Florin Chilian - Zece (Ten)




Refren : Zece intamplari ciudate si-o minune (Ten strange happenings and a miracle)
Te-au adus in casa, zece (Have brought you home, ten)
Zece pictori se tot mira (Ten painters are all surprised)
Cat esti de frumoasa (How beautiful you are)
Zece zile trec absurd de nu stiu (Ten days pass absurd, I don’t know)
Nu stiu cum, nu stiu pe unde, nu stiu (I don't know how, I don't know where, don't know)
Zece vieti de-as sta cu tine (Ten lives if I'd stay with you)
Tot ar fi putine (It would not be enough)

Doua stele, paralele, (Two stars, parallels)
Stele, lacrimi innodate si (Stars, tied tears and)
Lumina de la ele (Their light)
Pentru tine toate (All for you)

Patru printi cu trei castele (Four princes with three castles)
Ape, lanturi fermecate si (Waters, charmed chains and)
Tot cerul peste ele (All the sky over them)
Pentru tine toate (All for you)

Refren x1

Sapte zane, toate bune (Seven fairies, all good)
Licurici, sperante-n noapte si (Fireflies, hopes in the night and)
Piticii din poveste (The story’s gnomes)
Pentru tine toate (All for you)

Noua magi in faptul serii (Nine magus in the evening)
O potcoava sus departe, si (A horse shoe up far away, and)
Comorile din suflet (The treasures of the heart)
Pentru tine toate (All for you)

Refren x1

Desertaciune II / Emptiness II

Am scris versurile urmatoare acum cativa ani. Poate ca atunci eram doar un copil sau poate ca atunci am gandit cu adevarat ca un adult. Acum o recitesc si imi dau seama ca sunt pierduta, ca nu stiu ce vreau de la viata asta, ca sunt dezamagita de mine si de oamenii si lucrurile care ma inconjoara.

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I wrote the next lyrics several years ago. Maybe I was just a kid then, or maybe then I really thought as an adult. Now I read them again and I realize that I am lost, I don’t know what I want from this life, I've disappointed myself and the people and things that surround me have disappointed me also.

Desertaciune (Emptiness)

Ma intreb adeseori daca... (I often wonder if ... )

Exista Dumnezeu (There is God)
Sau exista iubirea? (Or there is love?)
Exista aceasta lume (Is there this world)
Sau ne inseala privirea? (Or we are seeing wrong?)

Ne ascundem de adevar (We hide from the truth)
Cu ochii plecati. (With eyes looking down.)
Credem in vorbe, (We believe in words,)
Traim impacati. (We live at peace.)

Gandul la noi (Thinking about us)
Acopera gandul (Covers the thought)
Ca multi asupriti (That the oppressed)
Ne cer doar cuvantul. (Are asking only for our word.)

Un bine infim (A small good)
Uitam a-l face (We forget to do)
Dar cerem pamantul (But we want the world)
In comori sa-l prefacem. (To transform it in treasures)

Ne nastem cu drepturi (We are born with rights)
Dar lipsiti de dreptate. (But deprived of justice.)
Invatam sa-nselam, (We learn to cheat,)
Cum sa castigam in toate. (How to win in all.)

In aceeasi iluzie (In the same illusion)
Mii de masti se-ntalnesc. (Thousands of masks meet.)
Se mai naste o viata (Another life is born)
Pe care altii o pedepsesc. (Which others punish.)

La aceleasi concepte (To the same concepts)
Si aceleasi idei – (And the same ideas -)
Aceleasi atitudini (The same attitudes)
Fara sa vrei. (Without you wanting it.)

Vorbe fara esenta, (Words without essence,)
Oameni prea mici, (Too small people,)
Suflete de gheata – (Souls of ice -)
O creatie Kitch. (A Kitch creation.)

Ne rugam la Soare, (We pray to the Sun,)
Ne-nchinam la zei, (We dedicate ourselves to gods,)
Le-aducem ofrande (We bring them offerings)
Apoi ne lepadam de ei. (Then we forsake them.)

Ne juram cainta. (We swear we repent.)
Cersim mila tuturor. (We beg everybody's mercy.)
Ingenunchem in iertare (We knee in forgiveness)
Pentru rani care dor. (For wounds that hurt.)

Mintim, inselam, (We lie, we cheat,)
Omoram din placere (We passionately kill)
Tradam din vointa (We betray of our will)
Dar apoi... tacere. (But then... silence.)

Caci nu exista pedepse (Because there is no punishment)
Pentru cei vinovati (For the guilty ones)
Cand creste durerea (When the pain is intensifying)
A ai nostrilor frati. (Of our brothers.)

Ne pierdem onoarea, (We lose our honor,)
Demnitatea la fel. (Dignity too.)
Ne nastem spre pieire, (We are born for dying,)
Ducem trai fara tel. (We live a life without purpose.)

Ne falim cu creatii, (We take pride in our creations,)
Descoperiri noi, (New discoveries,)
Dar cate din ele (But how many of them)
Nu ne fac rau? (Do not hurt us?)

Caut in mine. Neant. Haos. Gol. (I'm searching inside me. Nothingness. Chaos. Emptyness.)
Unde-i sufletul meu? (Where is my soul?)
Nu mai cred in iubire! (I stopped believing in love!)
Nu am Dumnezeu! (I don't have a God!)

Versuri / Lyrics

O any thing, of nothing first create!
O heavy lightness! serious vanity!
Mis-shapen chaos of well-seeming forms!
Feather of lead, bright smoke, cold fire,
sick health!
Still-waking sleep, that is not what it is!
This love feel I, that feel no love in this.
Dost thou not laugh?

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Dintr-o nimica toata la inceput!
Desertaciune grea, voioasa jale!
Haos diform de forme ideale!
Avant de plumb! Lumina, fum,
foc, gheata!
Bolnav, dar teafar!
Somn de-a pururi treaz!
Esti si nu esti: acesta e amorul!
Pe care eu l-urasc,
Desi-i duc dorul!

Romeo, SCENE I, Romeo & Juliet by William Shakespeare
Suna mai bine in romana decat in engleza.

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Sounds better in romanian than in english.